i don't know, ako mama ug ako don't seem to get along a lot..
all we do is argue.
i mean, when i was 4 till 9 years old, my mom went to canada to work. and i was left here w/ my dad but then my dad wasn't really there for me as well because he was busy with "friends". she actually askd my dad to stop working so he could take care of me. but then my tita actually fulfilled that job of being a mom and a dad at the same time .
then when i was 9 and half, my dad and i went to canada reunited with my mom, and till then, my mom would argue in so many things. i mean, i'm pretty sure i was not a rebel. i was a good kid, didn't smoke, didn't drink , or do drugs, i did good in my studies and graduated. but then till now, im 21 years old, i feel like, everythings still the same.. just last year, i came back here in philippines to study and same thing, my tita is taking care of me along with her own family. nahihiya naman gani ko kay apil na ko sa iyang responsibilities up to now.

i reached out to my mom and tell her what i feel and stuff, but all she says, "i'm sorry, im not a good mother." but i never said anything like that, all i want her to know is how i feel about what's going on b/w us. is that so hard to understand?

her expectations from me is tooooo high and i'm so tired dealing w/ those cuz i can't be the person she wants me to be but she still at it and telling me i can do it. she gets mad at me over the phone, because she works so hard to pay for my tuition here and all i do is not get high grades. but im trying my best, im double timing on my studies sometimes triple. when i was back in canada i worked so i had my own money to buy things and pay stuff. but now, im completely dependent on them and so they get mad at me all they want. fine , i accept that. but please.. sometimes things get so redundant it is so irritating..

please help?