THE BEGINNING...
When I was eight years old my sister and I went to California after we were petitioned by our
Mom...Anyway for six years i haven't returned until One day, my Mom and I had a disagreement..Okay to
make it short.. she bought me a one way ticket back to Philippines...
I arrived at Cebu around November 14 or 15... I was nervous and excited to see my old friends again
okay anyway thats when i saw my childhood crush, "R"..., since i was four years old i have been
infatuated with this dude... i mean most of my memories during that time consist of him... anyway now 14
years old*i just turned 15 btw* looking at him made me wonder,... what in the world was i thinking.. i
have chased this guy since i could remember even had a fight with my cousin, who by the way is like a
best friend to me, for him!we even had a play marriage as ng ceremony kami...naka dress pa gani ku...
anyway.. i was reminiscing old memories with one of my friends when all of a sudden an old friend
came by,... they told him that it was me and that i came back from the states just yesterday,..i could
never forget his reaction...his exact words were
"Pag sure diha ui! D mana sya!"
hahaha .. anyway.. after that i started noticing him more and how much hes changed... after 3 days
he asked me out... on that day he asked me out would've been our last hours together kay inka ugma mu
larga ku for a boarding school in iloilo...
but when he asked me out i guess my mind went blank and aku sya g sagot... few hours later before
i went home... i started thinking.. i will never see this boy again.. what is the freaking point of going out
with him if ill never be able to "be" with him... so that's when i broke up with him and i made sure he would
get hurt... i said things i didn't even mean nor thought about... i guess i was thinking that hurt him now
than later right? plus what would i have to loose.., ill never see him again,..boy was i wrong! it was
christmas break and all pupils had to go back to their homes and enjoy the holiday since there would be
no teachers in the dorm...
when we saw each other again he just completely ignored me... but what did i
except,... of course he would after that night... anyway, since it made me feel uncomfortable to see him i
agreed to go to bohol and spend a couple days their... when i came back to cebu i only had a few days
before i would return to iloilo,... but miraculously we actually started talking again... then we were back
together just like that... while i was in iloilo though i had i guess what you'd call "doubts" ...i mean i had
no communication with him....
then one day i called my cousin and he told me that he got back with his ex... though he didnt
know me and him*my bf at the time* were still together... it didn't surprise me ,not one bit i mean when i
was there in cebu he would text other girls, katong nag away man gali mi na-ay ni agi na bayot nya aku
bf kailangan ug kwarta para sa tagay sa amo barkada... ni tindog bitaw na sya..ka away lang namu ha...ni
tindog sya ni akbay sa bay0t..ni balik sya a few minutes later... ng katawa murag wala ra...murag na
buhat na niya a million times...ni ingon pa sya "o 50 para sa aku talent fee" as in ni samot aku kalagut
niya... i mean bastos kaayo sya as in ... so when my cousin told me that he was back with his ex while
he's currently dating me... hah it didn't surprise me... i put up a wall... and put on a face that i wasnt
hurt...that i didnt care...
IN ILOILO -PART 1 LOVE SQUARE NA DILI TRIANGLE-
as those problems were happening... when i first arrived in iloilo central commercial high school *its
a chinese school in harro* the first guy i noticed was...well my nickname for him with my friend was "Mr.
Mayabang" .. one look palang nya na gustuhan naku iya porma... but wala kaayo nako sya g pay attention
kay nakitan man naku sya dikit na dikit sa aku amiga..so after that murag wala ra...
All of a sudden, idk what happened pag balik naku pag Jan. nagka close me tungod sa piso kay nag
kulit2an man gud me about christmas presents and amu ihatag to each other kay piso... Okay so here is
when na crush na ko niya... i was at the mall with my friend the one na dikit na dikit kaayo sya sa una
kita naku niya... i saw him looking at unisilver braceletes... so aku sya g kuhit... then mau tu aku sya g
kulit na asa na ako xmas gift kay hagbay ra ni pass ang pasko wala pa gihap0n.... then he wasnt paying
much attention kay naa syay g pili so ni lakaw ku...
a couple minutes later naay nag tawag sa aku pangalan.. pag turn around naku nakitan naku sya
nag dagan padulong naku...ni ingon sya sa aku friend e harbor sa kuno ko niya... to make it short he
dragged me back to the unisilver stand and he bought me a bracelet... and then unromantically g tuklod
ku niya ni ingon sya "o yan na para di muna aku kukulitin pa!" i walked away ..kilig na kilig.. hahah kay no
guy has given me anything before... xDDD
anyway... weeks passed and we became textmates.. i bought him a bracelet too... we wore our bracelets everyday even if mag awai me... we still had in around our wrist... then something
happened... we became more than textmates more than friends... we became the best of friends we were so close people at dorm thought m.u na mi... but of course theres the twist.. HE HAS A GF... yeah i
know... bati paminawun but it was an innocent friendship.. nothing happened till one night he called me
saying nag awai cla ... he told me his gf felt like she couldnt trust him anylonger... i said why? do you
want me to fix it
*kay btw gi hatag niya aku number sa iya gf para mg txtmates kuno me...sakit nu...* he
said no kai naa pa syay e ingon naku... hes inlove with three girls..
*thats why this part is called love ang uban kay for example bf sa aku best friend na ganahan kaayo ni
mr.m katung dikit na dikit kaayo sya niya ba...grabe best friend pa naku nu...basta read on*
one is his gf of course two is my best friend the one dikit na dikit kaayo sya sauna and third me.. .nganu?
ambot lang kaha... anyway... ni ingon ku niya
"you have to choose someone because dili na pwede na mag love sya ug 3 ka tao kay murag dili na
faithful sa imu gf ug sa imu self.."
after a minute on the phone na silent kaaayo wala gyud nag storya ni talk na sya ni ing0n sya.. aku
dao...in my mind i was thinking wow.. ive waited for my best friend to tell me he loves me that he'd want
to be with me that he feels the same as i do... but pag hitabu it wasnt as i expected..it was like i thought
i would be so happy when he finally said those lines... but i wasnt.. i felt guilty ashamed and most of all
furious.. at him, at myself, at the situation... i mean god gpa dung0g2 naku tu sya sauna ato na kanta na
friend of mine... hai sus... pagka... anyway i finally answered... i said
"WTF ARE YOU SAYING.. DO YOU HONESTLY WANNA RUIN OUR FRIENDSHIP..E SUGAL NIMU A2 FRIENDSHIP?!BASIG GUS2 NIMO DLA NATA MAG TAGDANAI"
it was what i thought was right.. that i wouldnt admit... what i have been screaming inside na gusto ku
din sya...anyway the next day all the stuff he gave me including the rose from prom aku g sagpa niya..i
told him kung ibali wala ra nimo a2 frienship pwes e bali wala ra sad naku...
*btw after prom iya ku gi hat0d sa amu room sa hotel after gi kuyugan ku niya sa d0rm para maka saka ku
mg ilis... iya ku g hat0d nya he stole a kiss... on the cheek,.. my god super kilig naku... but at the time i
thought he probobly just meant it as a friend kiss...*
after that incident he actually begged for his forgivness and we became friends again and grew
more closer.. i knew i shouldnt have forgived him because on the week of valentines day... things started
to change...we started fighting more.. and not small petty fights.. i mean fights na AWAI GYD.... as in
mag hilak mi duha... then after nag street dance me for chinese new year.. he was the joker for the
dragon and i was just in the parade to dance with my batchmates... we were alone in a classroom
together...he bought me soup and said
"kain ka muna jan...ang aga pa natin gumising para sa umagang kay ganda na filming alam ku pagod kna..12 kana kase natulog ka gabi e tapos 3 kapa gumising para sa show.."
*kase our school was featured on umagang kay ganda..*
after we talked... i had a feeling he was leaning over for a kiss.. everytime he tried to id turn
away until bam... he
kissed me.. on the lips..!!! as in super irita ku!!! dko alam kung halikan ku rin xya or
SAMPALIN KU kay unsa iya pag tu.0 naku cheap!?!?!?!?! BUT... i really liked him... BUT ITS NOT AN
EXCUSE... as in..that short second for reaction aku gi awai aku kaguling0n sa aku utok! i mean i wouldnt
even let my bf's in the states kiss me on the lips... only one dude kissed me on the lips and thats cause 2
months na mi...! i mean wala gani sya nag court.. naa pa sya gf.. iya ku gi kisan.... since then idk what
our friendship began..kung mu gunit sya sa aku hand wala sad ku mu react.. but in the states kung naa
mu gunit naku ug hanap g bugbug crado nana naku... but idk..murag aku sya g payagan.. mag holding
hands.. mag kiss sa cheeks.. pero once ra ku niya g halikan sa lips kay after that aku sya gi ingnan ayaw
na kay dko gus2 ana... i mean smack ra 2 .. pero nag lain aku kabuhi... anyway... then naa nag court... si
"MR.J.T" wa ku nakabaw best friend diay na cla niMR.Mayabang... and then ... katung g kalat sa mga tao
na kami na ni Mr.M... c Mr.JT..nawala ug pag asa... then to make it short.. i got fed up... around the end
of febuary... i was done.. aku na g ignore c MR.M and aku g explainan c MR.JT and after 2 months niya ug
court
*ng court sya naku during jan*
aku sya gi sugot pagka march 12... purting suku a ni mr.m and then more awai and then came the day...
MR.M and MR.JT play basketball together all the time.. but everytime cla gyd ang kuntra but bff cla... aku
g sitsitan c mr.jt para murag understanding namu b na ui galingan mu mga ing ana...and then all of a
sudden nag shinagitai cla c mr.jt ni ingon salig lng ka mas magulang ka kaisa naku nya c mr.m sad pikon na
pikon... then next thing nag bagay na cla! my bf..mr.jt knows everything except the kisses and holding
hands with me and mr.m i told him na g bastosan ra ku niya na kung naa syay kailangan id do anything for
him pero when im in need mag awai ra mi... though wala sya pake naku iya raku g duwa2 an... anyway
sus muna... since then everytime mr.m sees me and mr.jt mg pa dung0g dung0g nya mg ingon pa sya asa
man kuno 2 aku best friend... nya kung wala aku best friend para ipa selos ku niya iya tawagun iya gf sa
phone nya mag storya anai sila daku kaayo ug ting0g na dili mana sya dako ug ting0g .. iya lagi murag
tabla ra g shagit... after ng awai cla ni mr.jt, aku g storyaan na si mr.m .... after 3weeks wala naku sya g
tagad ni ingon ku niya ayaw e apil c mr.jt sa amu awai... awai namu amu a ra ayaw e damai aku bf.. iya
ku g katawan.. n thats when i realized i trully lost a friend.. or who i thought was a friend.. i mean best
friend gyud ba ku a2 niya or iya ra ku g duwaan... i think its the later... anyway... thats how our
friendship ended...
IN CEBU PART 2 -the past present and future..? the epilogue or to be continued?-
the past ku aku crush when bata pa ku... aku present well katu bff saku crush and future...well c mr.jt
hahah muna ang gi ing0n sa aku friend hahah anyway... nagkita na sad mi sa aku na ex... or w.e. he is to
me now... ha.. he hasnt changed a bit... still walai derekty0n in life .. i mean di 2 naku xya patulan nu
kung dli 2 sya naku su0d na amigo pag bata namu... i hate everything about him...wala sha respect pa
gyd... anyway... idk what to do now...
should i stay with mr. jt..kay sometimes i question myself.. whats the true reason aku sya g sugtan ...and
why am i comparing my relationship with him and mr.m... i mean the reason why were not as close as me
and mr.m are is cuz i guess i dont let him... im so closed off on it.. idk what to do.. everything aku nakita
kay mr.jt is opposite from mr.m then again most of the time... they act exactly alike... THEN theres my
ex... wtf... unsa aku buhaton niya ... aughhh... and as for my childhood crush... bahala na sya sa iya
life... over used na kaayo sa.. murag adict2....
but the real reason why i wanted to tell you this story is cause
im confused...
with mr.m and mr.j..
kanta gani naku sauna para kay mr.m is friend of mine then nahimu ug heaven knows i love you goodbye
then nahimu ug somewhere down the road....paano na kaya..*pero karon lng sad na kai wa gyud naku na
sulti niya but i think he knows now.. idk.. ambot a...*
wa na ku balu... g.Atay kaayu du... i never been in this situation before..
and with mr.j... iya ku g.love bisag unsa aku batasan towards niya...
hai..pero si ex gyd... pareha me... iya bday dec27 aku dec28 iya brother dec29...pero mai lagi iya brother
mas close pami sa iya brother kaysa aku ex! sus! piste lgi kaayo ..kanta gud namu sa iya brother kay
halaga by parokya ni edgar...
and ai ambot with mr.m nag pa tanga2 kaayo ko pariha gyud ku sa katong movie na paano na kaya ...as
in aku batasan kay mr.m kay pareha kai kim except pag febuary na dira ra mi nag awai... sakit man
gud...chick boy sha... ni ingon btaw aku friend na let him go muna cause he has a lot to learn... ikaw mas
advanced man ka kaysa niya..kung makitan nimu sya naay babae just think the girl will make him one step
closer to you in the future.. the more ma gf niya.. or maka unsa niya...the more mas dali iya experiences
and hell look back and know ikaw ra gyud ang ni stand out... murag ing ana ba... i just hope inka balik
niya if ever... dili na sya too late kai basig ma bakit ngayon ka lng na amu bagu theme song xDDD
nya kami ni MR.JT ug MR.M murag movie na
one more chance katung bea alonzo ug c john lloyd cruz...
na igu gyud ku katong line ni john lloyd na
"you had me at my best she had me at my worste.. binaliwala mu lng... "
kai its true mr.m had me at my best and mr.jt had me at my worste which is why im soo thankful ni mr.jt
kai iya gyud g tiis aku mga actions cuz deep down i think he knows na sakitan ku kay mr.m....
i just dont know anymore....
about mr.m ...
mr.jt...
P.S
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SORRY IF ITS REALLY LONG...
HAHA!
cge ty ty for reading
any advice ill take into consideration
and please dont be afraid to be negative..i can accept constructive criticism ... i understand i was wrong with mr.m cause of the gf part...
anyway im still confused!!!
ty for reading...!!!
:UPDATE:
mr.m told his gf about what he so called "happend" between us... though i know most of it is my fault
because i let it continue at nagpa tatanga lng aku sakanya... ewan kase... i was thinking man gani na
kanusa man intawn ku ma ta.uhan and since wala gyud na nahitabu.. i really had to stop our so called
"friendship" or whatever it was because it will just hurt me in the end... ngpagamit lng b... so might as
well end it now para dili mas grabe ang pain... hai...anyway dba naging close man mi sa girl.. kar0n di na
sya mu txt back.. i dont blame her... idk what to do... i miss mr. m.... and me and mr.jt are having a
LDR.... it sucks pero i hope na makaya ni namu... i havent really fallen for him yet ... im trying to and he
knows that... this probobly sounds selfish but i dont wanna let him go... hes the only one who didnt treat
me like crap... but you never know its still early in the relationship...
"love" sick adventures,...*long story ni, sorry detailed na detailed kaayo*
arun di kapui ug basa maka libat pud tawn 
Originally Posted by aozora
ako gibasa hurot. naa ko naganahan na thought nga imong nasulat. inspiring.
