well, alll i can say is...
ayaw nah..naa naman diay to sxay gf...then kay abe ni lakaw..mao iya dayon kah g.tawagan...kah klaro ana nga gi panakip butas lang ka niya...
kah lain ana niya ue...


you have been brave & courageous despite the things he has done to you...as what you have said...your on your way to recovery nah...so let it be...
you deserve someone better...that would love you wholly...
but you also need a closure of that kay it would hunt you in your next relationship...so I suggest see him for once then you talk it out...not for him but for yourself para that chapter of your life will be CLOSED nah...
that's all, hope I have helped you in my own little way....