HELP I'm in the grayest area of love and friendship

[panganod]

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methinks, you have a lot of misconceptions about what being gay is. you should remedy this. And from your answer, you treasure the guy more, and since you have sexual feelings for him, guess, you are in love with him. whether that makes you gay or it's just a natural thing for you, you decide.

also, you'll need to try and accept the truth about yourself, and this requires courage. if you have accepted, you made the first step, you can then decide about how you relate or how you want your relationship with your friends will be. that is, if you are resolved on having a romantic relationship with either of them.

then your friends have to make their decision about you. it's up to them and especially up to the guy. the consequence, good or bad, you'll have to accept. good luck! the key is end your confusion and make a decision.

[cp103]

@ balthier

parehas ra sa g.ingon ni panganod, 1st step rana xa nga u learn to accept ug kinsa jud ka. now, gkan dra, makabalo na ka ug unsa imo dapat nimo buhaton pra masulbad na imo problema...

[balthier_bunanza]

oh wow. naputol man gud amung internet conneksyon sa balay mao na wala ko ka-onlayn.

pero karon kaa naa ko sa netopia sa sm, nangilad na nag-grocery kay dili nako ma-take nga nag-inom sila sa earthweb ron. lol.

anyway, grabiha sa inyung mga replies oi. i've heard a lot of helpful tips from all of you. the thing is, last night, ako gi-confront akong migo. ingon ko niya na i want the good old days back. kanang walay akward2x na moments. dili nako magbinayot niya. dili nako mag-biga2x sa akong amiga. back to friends nalang, bahala sakit. basta i want the good old days back.

ug sa dihang wala siya nitubag. nisakay lang kalit ug jip ang buang. lol.

ako gi-adto ang girl sa iyahang office, gihatdan nako ug food unya i told her what happened. she said i did the right thing, nya is for the good of everyone.

niuli ko. when i woke up today, a common friend bah texted me na nag-inom daw sila karon sa earthweb. lupad gyud dayun ko didto. unya akward man kaayo, ingon lang ko na mag-grocery ko nya gibiyaan nako sila didto.

ang akong problema karon, unsaon nako nga dili ko magpaklaro na gasakit akong dughan? sakit bitaw gyud kaayo pero i could never have the both of them. mangita ko'g lain.

bahala girl. bahala guy. basta lain. sakto ba na akong desisyon?

[W.Axl Rose]

iladlad na lang bro na usa ka mahuyang, the truth will set you free, my two cents bweheheh

[balthier_bunanza]

@W.Axl Rose: what exactly do you mean by "ladlad"? if it means being girly, crossdressing, man to man ***... then dili gyud ko mu-ladlad.

update: wala ko niuli sa amoa for two days kai napraning ko na they might do something again. i went with them everywhere i go. praning na gyud ko.

[ghost-rider]

oh my gosh,this is really a serious matter bro,after reading everything in this thread...hmnnn...
if i wer to ask,magpakatotoo lang ka,paminawa lang kung unsa gyud gusto nimo mahitabo.i guess daghan lang kag fears that's y di ka maka decide kung unsa or kinsa gyud.
for me,kung asa ko happy,ill go for it. but be always ready watever mga consequences muabot,coz u may have the wrong decision,u may have the right decision...pero kung unsa man gani madesisyonan nimo,don't ever regret it.
kung feeling nimo pwde ka laki and pwede pud sa babae,then so be it...(di nimo kelangan ipagsigawan sa uban tao na ignon ana ka,coz ur not obligated to please them,so ayaw kahadlok)just be urself.......goodluck!

[ghost-rider]

try to meet some new friends kuno bro,ayaw sa uban2x nila basin ma let go ra na imo feelings para nila kay maybe sa kada adlaw ila ra nawong permi nimo makita...give urself a break...ginhawa og lalom and say "kaya ko to!"..char! hehehe!

[balthier_bunanza]

@ghost-rider: naka-decide nako na dili gyud ko mubiya nila kai sila ra gyud ang mga taw na nakasabot gyud nako. so moving away from them is definitely not an option. i want another option. ever since i posted this thread kay i've told three close people about me. they were surprised, but they understood nonetheless. i guess i'm on the process of accepting whatever i am. ambot. lisod kaayo kay ang akong feelings sa guy gyud ang strong. but nothing physical. about sa girl, i attempted to do "it" with her, but ana siya na dili daw pwede. gasakit gud akong pus-on. lol. ambot. lisod kaayo. tabaaang. i tried looking at gay porn earlier... luod man uy.

[marajaw]

sorry ha but bayot ka?

[balthier_bunanza]

sorry ha but bayot ka?

i had this mindset sa una na if one man likes another man, whether ganahan pud siya ug girl, BAYOT gyud na siya. end of story. period.

pero what i feel about the guy is nothing physical. it's not brotherly love either. dili lagi ko ka-explain. bati pud kaayo na mu-admit kog BAYOT ko kay dili manko ma-atract sa laing guy. ambot. wa gyud koi tubag sa imong question... mao bitaw nag-post ko ani nga thread.