words have failed me too many times, and i may have said the same things below, in a different form, using different technology, channels, or even different combinations of words, but as simply as i humanly can, let me just say this:
i wish you happiness. really, i do. but that doesn't mean that i'm not hurt, that i don't think about you a lot, that i don't feel the painful lump in my throat everytime you cross my mind... i basically went through withdrawal symptoms, like someone addicted to a substance that's never going to be concocted again...
it's been a while. it should have been enough time, but it's still there.... it'll probably stay that way for years and years, but this, also doesn't mean that i'm unhappy. i'm not contented, like everyone else is, but i more than just get by. i have managed to find ways to be happy, distracted, and busy...
eventually, there was so many inexplicably profound and wonderful things i experienced for the first time, places i went to, people i met and made friends with... i'm rather pleased with how i've adapted to the new me.
so thank you. for everything and for making it easy for me, for us.