Words Get In The Way, All The Time

I have been here before.
This feeling is so familiar.
The thoughts are all so beautiful.
I truly have been here before.

I look at you from a distance.
Still I can't look into your eyes.
There is magic in your stare that I can't overcome.
You meet my wit with your charm.

Your presence stun me.
The thought of you near me makes me clinch.
I do not know if I am in pain.
Your aura drains the best word out me.

Why do I feel the need to see you?
When you're not around I feel weak.
To be away from you is suicidal.
I have to be there where you are.

I am like a child waiting for my gift.
Waiting in silence for your smile.
Always waiting in vain for your stare.
I want to be a child forever.

Everyday, I wish for you to say my name.
With hope that you might also feel the same.
If you do, I will leave the world I have.
Just let me look at you, that's what I love.

I don't want to miss your smile.
There is something with your lips that makes me wanting.
Your laugh is the cure of my anger.
I just want to be agitated every day so you will laugh for me.

I listen and ponder on every word that you say.
There is perfection that I cannot fathom.
Slowly, I have become a fan and a lover.
The latter is a secret now more than ever.

I do not want to have space between this room and where you are.
So I can feel the warmth of your stare.
I want to come in and find you there waiting.
It would be beautiful to stumble upon you laughing.

If I am difficult to please, you are doing the best trick.
You have become my obsession.
I am a slave to every moment you look at me.
Just let me look at you too so I can be free.

Just let me look at you in silence.
Just let me look at you in the cold night.
Just let me look at you in the crowd.
Just let me look at you in my dream.

There is no first time and no last.
I do not know when it began and how it would end.
If this is a habit then it is hard to break.
As I am just a child waiting for that beautiful gift.

I do not want you to know this feeling exist.
Just realize that when I look at you, I feel heaven.
Please look at me so my joy will be complete.
Look at me and smile so our hearts meet.

If you can feel it now, just let it be.
For this feeling shall pass as it used to.
I am just a girl, waiting for a guy to give me his smile.
But this feeling I'm sure shall linger for a while.

Please don't mistake this for love.
I know love from long ago.
Love is mine to know.
I have known love and this is isn't so.

I don't want to keep this obsession.
There is no reason to do so.
This is just my little secret.
So I can be near you.

One day, this excitement will fade.
There will be no gravity to pull my heart when you smile.
You laugher will become noise that I will soon hate.
Your presence will not be special as it is today.

But for now, just let me look at you.
I will be silent about it so you won't walk away.
Look my way once in while.
Give me my perfect gift., your beautiful smile.