Memoirs of an Amnesiac

I probably hold the record for the person with the longest time in the CR in our family. When my father was alive, he would pound on the door and insist that I stop reading.

Yes, I read in the CR. And I read a lot. Sometimes when my thinking is in tune with the speed of diarrhea, I would grab any reading material that I get hold of: shampoo or soap box labels. I seemed to have memorized those commercially framed texts at the back of our favorite shampoo and soap products. For the life of me, I find it mentally stimulating that I can concentrate in my reading while crapping.

I don't know. Maybe that is the only time that I can really sit while reading. Most of the time, when I sit on a chair inside my room, I would head on to my bed and the next thing I know, my body is slowly reclining, my eyes, ready to shut and bid the conscious world adieu. There is no serious reading done but a lot of snoring, yes.

It's during those times in the CR that I really get to understand something. Like, who, among you really read labels at the back of shampoos and soaps? Do you even in the first place read them, like really read their instructions? I do. It is also during those times, (especially since this had been a habit when I started my love for reading) that I get to really absorb what I read. So I bring my notes for tests there in the CR, while all the crap is released from me.

It must be that something gets in fast when you try to release something else. It's like learning a new thing. We all need to let go of some previous biases that will eventually clog our systems and hinder us from actually absorbing the new concept. In relationships, how will one ever be able to move on when you don't even have the slightest move to forget about what HAD BEEN? And eventually, welcome a new person into your life by totally releasing your attachments to the previous.

Forgive me, but crapping really has been very symbolic and allegorical. And I can't help musing about it.

Oh well, it's time for me to release one now.