LeeLeePot

i've always believed that dreams are warning signs for the future to come and that i have to heed and be wary about it. last night, i dreamt of me and a friend whom i called Maya (although i think that Maya was also me since i don't have any friends with that name and my second name is May) that we were being chased by a snake. i don't know what i was doing but i was looking at Maya running around and I was screaming her the instructions on what she must do. Now, I've learned thru Discovery that snakes don't see and they only sense by movement so I screamed for her to not move so that the snake won't follow her around but the idiot ran toward me and we ended up as both being chased by the snake and then we went into this muddy part of the place in my dream and the snake was gone but it was replaced by an alligator. crap! and so Maya was being chased again by the alligator around the muddy river. the alligator was quick and had almost bitten her ankles. again, i was just standing and screaming and directing her on what to do. i could hear myself screaming for her to lie down on the mud so that the alligator won't see which she did but the alligator stayed and she could no longer breathe under the mud that she had to stand up and give herself a breather and the alligator saw her so she was being chased around again and she eventually ran toward me and i had no choice but to pull her and ran to the nearest escape i know. we jumped off the falls into the clear, rushing river. the last thing i remembered about my dream was the nice swim in the clear river and the reptiles were nowhere to be seen.

now, that was a scary dream so i had it googled. i found out that snakes and alligators represent betrayal from my close circle of friends (i only have a few friends. this will surely break my heart). being bitten by it represents love and disappointment (i actually feel more like being eaten by the alligator because i am emotionally drowned with him. *sadness*). the muddy water represents disagreeable things in my life (in dreams, i had to hide in that muddy water. does this mean i have to go along with what i don't agree with just to be away from betrayal and hurt?). then finally, the clear, refreshing river which i jumped in (it means my problems were solved. atleast something good happened in the end. i don't see anyone saving me in my dream but me).

it's quite a disturbing dream. i'd surely punch the face of the one who will betray me.

on the other side of my emotional trauma, i have opened that e-card again that i mentioned before which was sent on april 06 but got in my inbox recently.

Hunny i love you very much, every time a start a day i always think about you and me growing old together, i love you hunny i love you very much... happy 5 years to us... i hope there's another year or more or until we die...

i just love to read this over and over again. it makes me sad too. i really can't help but wonder if you still think the same about us. *sighs* we really could have lasted. if you weren't just an asshole.