Perceptions and Actions

You are special

In every way
In every aspect of my life
Everything is all about you
Everything changed about me

From the first day that I saw you
Something is still amiss
But as the days passed by
A series of events unfold

How could I smile without you
You are the reason
You are the one who can revert
That was once my troubling past
Into what I am right now

My life right now
Is like ...

1, 2, 3 and 4..
Those are the numbers used to be
the epitome of my existence

5, 6, 7 and 8..
Years gone by, learning, learning, learning
Each lesson learned polished me

9, 10, 11 and 12..
Moving on into an another, knowledgeable destination
Gives me uncertainty and confusion

13, 14, 15 and 16..
The old times couldn't be so fascinating
Yet I can't keep it

17, 18, 19 and 20..
A new challenge arose ...

Is it me or you,
Following or swaying away from your gaze,
And distancing away from me

As the days gone by,
Overshadowing myself from the mysterious, elicit light
I hide myself in shame

In the nick of time,
Faces yet seen or unseen follows me,
Further trails my deepest sanity

All my mind and heart,
Treading within the recesses of my life,
Came back with a beat

Everything has been in doubt,
Anger ...

it has been three long years of entering the realm of this game..

i would never expect that this kind of game would be so "exhilarating and fast-paced", not knowing what you can see in an ordinary game..

as I train and train my way on learning the basics of badminton, there were minor instances that i can't hit it perfectly with my racket..

but now, everything has changed since I played numerous tournaments, and of course none of those games I participated ...

...the board exam is over, what awaits me is the forthcoming Board exam results...

...i'm hanging by a thread on what is the outcome of that said exam, for that "dreadful" thing cost me everything...

...its been a painstakingly 2 months of waiting and I've realized that I don't want to think about it anymore.. what I have now is just what I have to focus... work, work, work...

...how i wish i could turn back time and relearn all of my mistakes and ...

..this is what I hate the most...

..the exam is over, the results is what it is anticipated...

..even though our greatest challenge has been done for now, it still remains unscathed for now

..we soon-to-be nurses are being held off by this kind of exam we partake for the careers we surely pursued...

..it discourages me to think that the waiting i meant would span longer that what it used to be..

..the results is still underway, may ...

another day at the "office", or so-called review..

...woke up in transition... head straight to the commode, then dressed up like no other..

...kept pestering on the correct answers in my mind as i traverse myself from my humble abode towards the vicinity..

...it has been 3 days since i last set foot here, i'm bone thirsty, recalling the previous set of tests and their affirmative responses, i can't explain why..

...another stocked-up ...