I think I’m turning bisexual.

[sarah's adia]

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maypagka-butch ka? or femme gihapon?

I honestly don't know how to answer this question. All I know is I'm not a 'kikay' kind of girl.

[cesski]

@cesski:

Thanks for sharing your story.

Was the girl you kissed also straight at that time or was she already a bisexual/lesbian? No girl has ever tried to court me or kiss me, but I think I would be flattered if someone tried to. I hope the girl I like would be flattered too, and not offended, if and when I confess to her.

we were very straight at that time. we were not "out" nor were we "obvious" or showy or affectionate. we'd hold hands and hug but that's probably it. people started doubting our relationship because we got close all of a sudden like out of nowhere. before we became girlfriend-girlfriend, we were only at "hi and hello". we denied our relationship to the public, and reasoned out that we became close because of our CAT training. i was her corps commander and she was my adjutant/S1.

i was and am her one and only female partner. she went back to being straight after we broke up. if i was single now, we would probably be back together. we sorta have this "thing", i don't know what you call it, some sort of special connection because we were both our firsts. she will always be my first love.

anyway, don't be afraid. like i said, confide in someone you can trust, who you think will accept you.

[mio]

I honestly don't know how to answer this question. All I know is I'm not a 'kikay' kind of girl.

Aguy, naa juy possibility. Dapar mo decide naka mintras sayo pa. Ma kaya pag usab. Pero kung mao imong gusto, ok ra gihapon.

[Divemaster]

we were very straight at that time. we were not "out" nor were we "obvious" or showy or affectionate. we'd hold hands and hug but that's probably it. people started doubting our relationship because we got close all of a sudden like out of nowhere. before we became girlfriend-girlfriend, we were only at "hi and hello". we denied our relationship to the public, and reasoned out that we became close because of our CAT training. i was her corps commander and she was my adjutant/S1.

i was and am her one and only female partner. she went back to being straight after we broke up. if i was single now, we would probably be back together. we sorta have this "thing", i don't know what you call it, some sort of special connection because we were both our firsts. she will always be my first love.

anyway, don't be afraid. like i said, confide in someone you can trust, who you think will accept you.

C.A.T. cesski? that mean's you were still in 4th year high school back then, right?

[cesski]

yes.. that was 8 years ago..

[Dorothea]

Is it normal for a straight girl to dream about s*x with another girl? not day dream, but dreaming during your REM cycle.

[sarah's adia]

anyway, don't be afraid. like i said, confide in someone you can trust, who you think will accept you.

It saddens me that I can't think of anyone I can confide in. I am close with my family but it'd be awkward to share this with them. My boyfriend is out of the question, for very obvious reasons. I'm putting off telling him until I've figured this all out. My close friends are back home, but they are also close friends with my boyfriend. And I'm not that close yet with my new friends in the apartment building.

[Dorothea]

^TS, maybe you can talk to cesski. As someone who've been through this, she can really help you. I'm sorry you don't have anyone you think you can confide in, it is sad.

[sarah's adia]

So I saw her tonight. I just spent the past two hours with her and a few other friends in the lobby. Good thing she wasn't alone. She caught me staring at her twice and both times, she just smiled at me. *kilig mode*

I really have to watch myself so I won't accidentally reveal my secret. I think one of my neighbor friends (let's call her N) has somehow caught on to my attraction to her (let's call her S). I bought something for all the residents that I know S will particularly enjoy and N told S that I thought of S when I bought it. She said to me, "thanks, sarah". I think my face was flaming red at that moment. Am I being paranoid? Or does N know?

[sarah's adia]

^TS, maybe you can talk to cesski. As someone who've been through this, she can really help you. I'm sorry you don't have anyone you think you can confide in, it is sad.

She has already helped me a bit by sharing her story. It made me feel better to be given assurances that I'm not the only one who has been in this situation.