I'm 40 and here's my take on your concern Sushilover.
You are missing him because he is already part of your routine, you even addressed him as your bestfriend.
TTD: try not to talk, chat, txt or keep in touch with him for 15 days straight. If you can do that, then he's out of your normal cycle and you can move forward.
Lud-an ka niya because you have not really have crossed the inter-personal level of relationship.
mag sugod gyud ta sa personal level and everything in this menu is all "MINE" unsa imo Gusto, tanan ako.
e.g. ganahan ko buotan, gusto nako guapo, taas, macho .... tanan imo gusto and all what is ideal for you.
But once you have crossed into the inter-personal bracket, you will learn to accept what he is.
and wait till you both will go to the social level wherein the likes and dislikes of your friends, families, officemates, parents will sip in.
Long way to go dear.... and you can check if you really like, love, care for the guy .... KISS HIM, if you will heaven his looks wont matter, if you feell luod ... you know what to do.