i feel like i'm done with my life

[zerofcksgiven]

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I read through all of the comments here. Amazing ang support. na feel pud nako imo na feel TS. Except unlike you, I am a bad person. Akong gi talikdan akong kids, wife. parents, relatives, brothers and sisters, (it's my fault, btw). I am literally alone with superficial friends. I am drowning in debt and I still support my kids financially, I am in my early 30s with no career, no investments, no savings and no future. I haven't gone to church for the longest time and I feel like I am such a waste of human space. I can't go back anymore because of my pride and I really don't want to patch things up with my wife. So here I am, akong gi pa ibabaw akong pride, mahay mahay ang agi. I am the perfect example of who not be. Ungrateful, useless, miserable. Sometimes, I think I might be better off dead, and probably the lot of you here would agree with me after reading as to what kind of person I am. I am telling you this because there is so much to live for and tomorrow is always an opportunity to change. while I admit that my past is as dark as the void that is my soul, I know I can still turn things around. Maybe not sa akong relationships with my past, but in fixing myself. I have made mistakes then I became (and still am) depressed and it constantly breaks me and tears me down. Di ka nagiisa, dont nurture the feeling. Always create small wins (look at life and be happy about the small things just like how you would with big things). Update on my battle with depression, no cash to have myself checked. Constantly found at drinking places, tonyos, pipeline.. etc. kung asa ang botelya, didto ta.. smoking myself to death (1 stick = -1 day sa life, kind of logic) got a part time job to be productive. 3 hours a day 4 days a week. my pay there less than 3k lang kada buwan. lol. so i work about 12-14 hours a day. lisod man sad gud mamingaw. daghan kag ma hunahunaan nga di mao.. gamay nalang kulang. ok raman sad wa man say mangita. got myself insured pud para sako mga kiddies. hahaha.. lisod kaayo sa? kay daghan taw gnahan mu tabang,, daghan kunuhay naa para nimo.. but I still feel alone, and I feel so bad.. kana ganing ma ikog ka para sa mga taw nga ma associate nimo, feeling nako failure kaayo ko. AS IN. its all my fault man sad so ako ni lamyon ako kahimtang.. ok lang. rak en roll pa rin. Wish you all the best in your personal battles. I know that I am the last guy on your list kay tungod sa akong past, a stranger in a forum, you might not even consider it, but if you want to, we can talk. Who knows, I might be the one needing it. That might be your calling. hahaha. sorry nakisakay ko sa imo thread. haha

[Little_Mermaid88]

I read through all of the comments here. Amazing ang support. na feel pud nako imo na feel TS. Except unlike you, I am a bad person. Akong gi talikdan akong kids, wife. parents, relatives, brothers and sisters, (it's my fault, btw). I am literally alone with superficial friends. I am drowning in debt and I still support my kids financially, I am in my early 30s with no career, no investments, no savings and no future. I haven't gone to church for the longest time and I feel like I am such a waste of human space. I can't go back anymore because of my pride and I really don't want to patch things up with my wife. So here I am, akong gi pa ibabaw akong pride, mahay mahay ang agi. I am the perfect example of who not be. Ungrateful, useless, miserable. Sometimes, I think I might be better off dead, and probably the lot of you here would agree with me after reading as to what kind of person I am. I am telling you this because there is so much to live for and tomorrow is always an opportunity to change. while I admit that my past is as dark as the void that is my soul, I know I can still turn things around. Maybe not sa akong relationships with my past, but in fixing myself. I have made mistakes then I became (and still am) depressed and it constantly breaks me and tears me down. Di ka nagiisa, dont nurture the feeling. Always create small wins (look at life and be happy about the small things just like how you would with big things). Update on my battle with depression, no cash to have myself checked. Constantly found at drinking places, tonyos, pipeline.. etc. kung asa ang botelya, didto ta.. smoking myself to death (1 stick = -1 day sa life, kind of logic) got a part time job to be productive. 3 hours a day 4 days a week. my pay there less than 3k lang kada buwan. lol. so i work about 12-14 hours a day. lisod man sad gud mamingaw. daghan kag ma hunahunaan nga di mao.. gamay nalang kulang. ok raman sad wa man say mangita. got myself insured pud para sako mga kiddies. hahaha.. lisod kaayo sa? kay daghan taw gnahan mu tabang,, daghan kunuhay naa para nimo.. but I still feel alone, and I feel so bad.. kana ganing ma ikog ka para sa mga taw nga ma associate nimo, feeling nako failure kaayo ko. AS IN. its all my fault man sad so ako ni lamyon ako kahimtang.. ok lang. rak en roll pa rin. Wish you all the best in your personal battles. I know that I am the last guy on your list kay tungod sa akong past, a stranger in a forum, you might not even consider it, but if you want to, we can talk. Who knows, I might be the one needing it. That might be your calling. hahaha. sorry nakisakay ko sa imo thread. haha

do not hesitate to send a msg if you want to talk to somebody here. keep fighting and don't let go

[phattchoi]

I read through all of the comments here. Amazing ang support. na feel pud nako imo na feel TS. Except unlike you, I am a bad person. Akong gi talikdan akong kids, wife. parents, relatives, brothers and sisters, (it's my fault, btw). I am literally alone with superficial friends. I am drowning in debt and I still support my kids financially, I am in my early 30s with no career, no investments, no savings and no future. I haven't gone to church for the longest time and I feel like I am such a waste of human space. I can't go back anymore because of my pride and I really don't want to patch things up with my wife. So here I am, akong gi pa ibabaw akong pride, mahay mahay ang agi. I am the perfect example of who not be. Ungrateful, useless, miserable. Sometimes, I think I might be better off dead, and probably the lot of you here would agree with me after reading as to what kind of person I am. I am telling you this because there is so much to live for and tomorrow is always an opportunity to change. while I admit that my past is as dark as the void that is my soul, I know I can still turn things around. Maybe not sa akong relationships with my past, but in fixing myself. I have made mistakes then I became (and still am) depressed and it constantly breaks me and tears me down. Di ka nagiisa, dont nurture the feeling. Always create small wins (look at life and be happy about the small things just like how you would with big things). Update on my battle with depression, no cash to have myself checked. Constantly found at drinking places, tonyos, pipeline.. etc. kung asa ang botelya, didto ta.. smoking myself to death (1 stick = -1 day sa life, kind of logic) got a part time job to be productive. 3 hours a day 4 days a week. my pay there less than 3k lang kada buwan. lol. so i work about 12-14 hours a day. lisod man sad gud mamingaw. daghan kag ma hunahunaan nga di mao.. gamay nalang kulang. ok raman sad wa man say mangita. got myself insured pud para sako mga kiddies. hahaha.. lisod kaayo sa? kay daghan taw gnahan mu tabang,, daghan kunuhay naa para nimo.. but I still feel alone, and I feel so bad.. kana ganing ma ikog ka para sa mga taw nga ma associate nimo, feeling nako failure kaayo ko. AS IN. its all my fault man sad so ako ni lamyon ako kahimtang.. ok lang. rak en roll pa rin. Wish you all the best in your personal battles. I know that I am the last guy on your list kay tungod sa akong past, a stranger in a forum, you might not even consider it, but if you want to, we can talk. Who knows, I might be the one needing it. That might be your calling. hahaha. sorry nakisakay ko sa imo thread. haha

boss kahibaw man ka sa problema why not solve it? there is no shame in admitting sa imung sayup. Pride is pride learn to swallow it panagsa. ang akong dili ma sabtan kay maka afford kay inum ug sigarilyo instead spend time sa imung mga anak. dili ra imung kaugaligon imung gi daut kung dili ang imung mga anak. be a good father nlng para nila.

peace

[zerofcksgiven]

boss kahibaw man ka sa problema why not solve it? there is no shame in admitting sa imung sayup. Pride is pride learn to swallow it panagsa. ang akong dili ma sabtan kay maka afford kay inum ug sigarilyo instead spend time sa imung mga anak. dili ra imung kaugaligon imung gi daut kung dili ang imung mga anak. be a good father nlng para nila.

peace

im trying man sir. nag cge rako hatag nila financially (its not enough of course, pobre ra baya ta. ehehehe). I have alot of issues mostly with myself. I need alot of fixing. mauwaw ko magpakita nila. murag I feel na inadequate ko. I feel dili ko worthy for anyone and everyone. ehehe.

[phattchoi]

im trying man sir. nag cge rako hatag nila financially (its not enough of course, pobre ra baya ta. ehehehe). I have alot of issues mostly with myself. I need alot of fixing. mauwaw ko magpakita nila. murag I feel na inadequate ko. I feel dili ko worthy for anyone and everyone. ehehe.

boss dili man ka inadequate ug maka provide ka no matter how small basta hinago-an thats good enough. imung mga anak lng gyud huna-hunaa kay mao nay importante. ilang future. try to connect to them. start small like a text message. walay namatay sa pag swallow sa pride boss

[Peenut]

im trying man sir. nag cge rako hatag nila financially (its not enough of course, pobre ra baya ta. ehehehe). I have alot of issues mostly with myself. I need alot of fixing. mauwaw ko magpakita nila. murag I feel na inadequate ko. I feel dili ko worthy for anyone and everyone. ehehe.

kanang feeling nimo nga mauwaw ka mu atubang sa imong mga weakness kay lalaki ka, society ang gahimo ana. Tan-aw nila dapat stable ta emotionally, physically, ug mentally kay lalaki lage, pero same ra ta tanan masakitan, magkalisod. Mao ayaw kauwaw ipakita imong weakness. Isipa nga naa pa kay chance nga mabag-o ang tanan.

[cranberry]

"PM is the key" Salig lang ta Boss, pero d lang ta maglaum..

[phattchoi]

"PM is the key" Salig lang ta Boss, pero d lang ta maglaum..

hokage moves!

[cranberry]

hokage moves!

nag-bag-o nako phatt.. mejo dapat inviting na dpat atung awra ani.. NYAHAHA!

[phattchoi]

nag-bag-o nako phatt.. mejo dapat inviting na dpat atung awra ani.. NYAHAHA!

uwahi na ang tanan. hahahaha