This will be my last piece before I go. Last night, fingolfin banned me again. I guess just another case of impulsive kind of moderation. I guess my experiment failed. The experiment failed. The experiment of trying to communicate with them in a civilized manner. To find ways to resolve our differences.
But I guess its very hard to communicate when the other lines are closed. When both of the parties have different wavelengths and different mindset. Most of all it’s very hard to get along if your personal hostility cloud your fairness and objectivity. Fingolfin even suggested that I have an identity crisis. (tan-awon ta lang bay kung kinsa may identity crisis sa atoa.)
I will go now and move on. After all I tried my best but what can I do if the other party do not intend to come to terms with me. IMHO, the very first stumbling block to real dialogue is PRIDE. The concerned mods have this problem. Because they wield banning power it makes them less susceptible to compromise. Worse, the have the luxury to insult people.
I can live with banning, muting, locking but I cant live being repeatedly humiliated in the forum in the guise of being moderated. I cant stomach anymore the filth that they throw on me. Laliman ka nga singka singkahan ka nga murag batang gamay? Way katungod ning mga tawhana nga mangasaba sa akoa ing ana. Very arrogant! Very unpolite, very uncivilized and uneducated mag moderate. Maayo ra ba unsa gyud ato sala ba. Being a moderator does not give you a carte blanch authority to humiliate and insult people. These people ask respect but they didn’t know how to respect others. But their behavior is like that kay naa man sila’y gisaligan.
To those people who are still here, you have a choice. Leave istorya.net and live as free men or stay here and be subject to their inhuman insults. You have a choice. If you can stomach them then fine. Linger here. But put it in mind that you have a choice. You can end it if you want to.
I decided to leave now. After all, I have outgrown istorya.net. I will leave behind a thousand posts (could have make it to CIA) , 7 usernames, multiple bannings, mutings, deleting and locking threads and countless insults which most of the time are undeserved. As the saying goes, “ kung dili ka nila dawaton, itaktak ang abog sa imong sandalyas ug lakaw sa laing dapit.” This time pisskhanxxx and fingolfin, this is for real. After all my honest efforts to reconcile, I have found out that you refuse my gesture. My conscience is clear right now. I found out that I don’t belong here anymore.
Curtain falls.