49 days has always been an eye opener to me. i gave it a try to watch, and i cried (wtf). i find it somehow shameful, i admit. laking dako muhilak. hahaha.
i see myself in minho/hang kang...how they treated their mother. i was all fvcked up in episode 19, at the hospital/mental ward when minho visits his mother before siya gidala sa pulis. and her mother was recalling things when she saw her son. she asked if the money she have saved bfore were enough to minho for his MBA exam (and she always though it will never be enough), she even said sorry to him kay she was not deserving as a mother to her. and my mother also thought that same thing on me, she always has been. it was...ugh. i felt minho at that exact point.
minho and in jung reflects myself more. i pity minho. i used to be bitter and vengeful, and also used to pity myself. i grew up with hardships, and also i have a better life now compared bfore...because i worked hard. at some point, i also thought of getting back to those who inflicted pain on me...but eventually i quit the thought of it.
i just can't do it. i also find it unfair to think nga some fortunate people SHOULD suffer the way i suffered. im not like that, and never thought of doing that because i know...one day will come nga if i plan to do so, it will backfire ra sab. motuo gyd kog karma kay i have seen it on someone, it hit him bigtime.
i asked myself, what if i'll be given 49 days after i die, and use someone's body...aside from my family, would i really get...pure tears? it provoked me. seriously.