Originally Posted by
idk.101
we've been together with this 'gf' for about a year and 10 months...and gikuhit na jud kos konsensya nako kung padayunon paba ni or dili. i know i can end this crap through 'breakup' and the likes, i already have them in mind.
pero what i fear is ma pressure nasad ko balik ky ako ra lay dili minyo among the siblings.
it started this way. i have this close friend nga ni ask kog favor nya to play as my gf. she asked why pretend and told her nga na pressure ko ky ako ray single sa manag-igsuon, and my parents are very adamant about it. gsamukan ko. i told them bfore nga dili na priority nako, pero gahi japon ulo.
eventually, niuyon cya and we both agreed on one condition: no ***. in return sa iyang help, i paid her 3000/month.
and so my deception begins. gikiwawan ko nga mag pretend at first kay i respect the girl. pero she was very game. she did the adlibs and stories about us whenever we attend occasions and shes damn good on it. opposite kayo mig batasan, she's this funny, versatile girl nga madala jud nimo basag asa, and im this seryoso, suplado, saputon type nga way paki sa uban. lol.
one memorable moment nga wa jd nako nakalimtan is our first kiss. we attended this reunion sa group of friends and had this game nga i couldn't recall clearly and they were teasing us nga 'kiss!'. i really refused, pero 'gf' did the opposite. she was whispering 'kiss na ta gud, pila ra man na ba! grr!'
i told her nga 'wa nis sabot nato amawa ka, sagdai gud na sila'. nag bawsanay pa jd mig singhag nga hunghungay. and the tease went louder, and tungod sa iyang kasuko gikusnit nya akong hawak kay na pressure na sd cya, atay kayo kay naguba jd akong nawng and my friends were asking kung naunsa ko. so eventually to end that b.s., gkiss na lng nako.
ilado na kayo cya sa friends nako ug sa pamilya sad, and nangutanana sd ako ginikanan kung ala pa ba miy plano mag minyo. my mother really wants see a kid from me. and me made a lot of excuses. mas pressure na hinuon.
i asked my 'gf kuno' nganong ni agree cya ani. i asked her kung ala ba siya nainsulto/nadegrade nga gbayaran siya or unsa. wala man sab dw.
and unsa ang reason? tungod kay gitabangan nako siya to get her life back daw. rebelde man gud ni cya sauna, and i helped her nga mkabawi cya. and now, she has a job na. and instead of 3000/month, she said nga i-500 nlng kay sobra na daw natabang nako niya. nauwa nasad siya nako, abi pa lng daw nawng siyag kwarta.
we're still together now, pero nakonsensya naman ko.
i asked her kung ok ra ba nga we'll do the 'breakup', as if nothing happened lang.
and she told me nga kung unsay plano nako she'll go with it.
pero i dont want pa. i want to end it kung mag near 30 na ko. im 25 karon, btw.
i know this question sounds downright stupid, pero ok ra ba ni?
what i worry more is my 'gf', kung makalahutay paba siya. i am very aware nga she's a girl, and basin nag hurt cya or what kay i used her. pero she told me nga dont think about it, she's aware nga she's been used sa akong plans. she just told me nga she wants to help me lang.
arrrggghhh...i sound very selfish jud sa?
if kamo naa sa sitwasyon nako, unsay buhaton ninyo? ga rigor na jud ning huna2 nako, napay trabaho, napa sad ni...pistiha jud oi...