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Originally Posted by
wenlove24
prehas ra man ta korz weak man pud ko mao nga pirmi jud nako isud sa huna2x nga "God's power is made perfect in weakness."
You're absolutely right about this sis.....Let me share this to you:
I never was a good christian even before.. but because of God's grace He rescued me and gave me a fresh start. It all went well for quite sometime and I was so happy living with the Lord until so subtly and half knowingly I became a
SELF RIGHTEOUS person and placed myself on pedestal over other people whom I thought are living a
very sinful life. Oh yes I tried to bring them back to the Light (through words and deeds) and I was able to persuade some, but deep in my heart I feel spiritually superior and there was an intense rejection especially to the ones who relapse back to sin.....I was very choosy with my friends at that time, I only wanted to associate my self with the
"so called" pious people (which is not a bad thing to do)
BUT the awful thing is that
I limited myself to that....I closed my self to the point of being
SELF RIGHTEOUS instead of simply being righteous, in my mind I even thought myself a living saint..................(I don't know what came over me during those times and it always shames me whenever I recall it
) (Shit! what a real hypocrite I had become!
)..
But God being God who works in mysterious and subtly ways intervened.. ..
I won't go to the details of it, so to make the long story short, God pulled Himself away from me and He placed me on TREMENDOUS temptations and trials that finally I fell...I fell so low that I saw myself back again to where I started as a shameful sinner......Then, as if by grace I saw myself being cast away by my
"so called"pious friends. And so I realized that God wanted me to experience all of this to eradicate the creeping sickness of my soul (
SELF righteousness)..... I was made aware that I was suppose to be His simple tool and
not to make myself my own master...He made His message clear that He is the captain of the ship and I am just a passenger and that from time to time can be His errand boy.
So now, in a way, I am glad that I relapse back to sin once in a while just so that I be reminded not to be
self righteous, that I be reminded to be more forgiving of the faults of others just as He (God) is ever forgiving to me, that I be reminded that it is not because of me but because of Him that I am saved.
It is in my own weaknesses that I saw the power and love of God