Thank you cjmagowan... i really appreciate it....for taking some time to read my problem...
and yes, im going on with my life... its just that it takes time to move on with myGIRL.... shes my 1st Love.... and until now i just cant believe everything has gone now..... it happened so fast.... i always asked myself "did she really fell out of love for me overnight??"...... it really that hard to move on when you had the feeling that shes the one already..... all those assurance and promises made by both partners.... PoOf!
im not thinking of falling in love to another girl again...not today... oh..no... i dont mean thinking... coz youo dont think about it... you just feel it..right? well maybe someday.... Ms. right will come... but what im afraid of is i will be having trauma because of my past experience..... you know.. when the right one comes....then theres hesitations.... idk.... we dont know....uncertainties of life...
i can pretend that im okay...but you cant just lie with whats your heart is really saying.... i might sound stupid but...sometimes...when i see something that reminds me of her, makahilak ra kog kalit... idk why... im not crying..but tears just keep falling..... idk.... idk what will happen gane if mag kita mi.... she dont want me to cry in front of her coz she dont want to feel guilty or pity of me... but Thanks kaau .... ill try my best to be Fine... its not that easy... but... mao joi dapat...... i can do this.... Thankz cjmagowan!