Depression/Suicide survivor support group

[xinevirtucio]

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Yes, if it was chess, surely there will be other games. But in life, there is only one checkmate.

In a short while, I feel I will be posting my last post here at iStorya.

Mao rani ako masulti...

You make things happen...you decide which road to take...

[farmboy]

Mao rani ako masulti...

You make things happen...you decide which road to take...

Yes sis.. we are the captain of our ships..we decide when to end a journey.

[Stargirl]

For anyone who is feeling suicidal and has no one to call, please head to this page: Suicide: Read This First

Here's the first part of the page's content.

If you are feeling suicidal now, please stop long enough to read this. It will only take about five minutes. I do not want to talk you out of your bad feelings. I am not a therapist or other mental health professional - only someone who knows what it is like to be in pain.

I don't know who you are, or why you are reading this page. I only know that for the moment, you're reading it, and that is good. I can assume that you are here because you are troubled and considering ending your life. If it were possible, I would prefer to be there with you at this moment, to sit with you and talk, face to face and heart to heart. But since that is not possible, we will have to make do with this.

I have known a lot of people who have wanted to kill themselves, so I have some small idea of what you might be feeling. I know that you might not be up to reading a long book, so I am going to keep this short. While we are together here for the next five minutes, I have five simple, practical things I would like to share with you. I won't argue with you about whether you should kill yourself. But I assume that if you are thinking about it, you feel pretty bad.

Well, you're still reading, and that's very good. I'd like to ask you to stay with me for the rest of this page. I hope it means that you're at least a tiny bit unsure, somewhere deep inside, about whether or not you really will end your life. Often people feel that, even in the deepest darkness of despair. Being unsure about dying is okay and normal. The fact that you are still alive at this minute means you are still a little bit unsure. It means that even while you want to die, at the same time some part of you still wants to live. So let's hang on to that, and keep going for a few more minutes.


Start by considering this statement:

Suicide is not chosen; it happens when pain exceeds resources for coping with pain.

That's all it's about. You are not a bad person, or crazy, or weak, or flawed, because you feel suicidal. It doesn't even mean that you really want to die - it only means that you have more pain than you can cope with right now. If I start piling weights on your shoulders, you will eventually collapse if I add enough weights... no matter how much you want to remain standing. Willpower has nothing to do with it. Of course you would cheer yourself up, if you could.

Don't accept it if someone tells you, "That's not enough to be suicidal about." There are many kinds of pain that may lead to suicide. Whether or not the pain is bearable may differ from person to person. What might be bearable to someone else, may not be bearable to you. The point at which the pain becomes unbearable depends on what kinds of coping resources you have. Individuals vary greatly in their capacity to withstand pain.

When pain exceeds pain-coping resources, suicidal feelings are the result. Suicide is neither wrong nor right; it is not a defect of character; it is morally neutral. It is simply an imbalance of pain versus coping resources.

You can survive suicidal feelings if you do either of two things: (1) find a way to reduce your pain, or (2) find a way to increase your coping resources. Both are possible.

Continue reading at: Suicide: Read This First

[wenlove24]

I saw this video and I hope you guys take the time to listen to it....It's really very inspiring...
My sincerest hopes that you eventually go and get help... find meaning in your lives..

Kutless - Promise of a Lifetime 720p HD - YouTube


"Looking back at me I know that you can see my heart is open to the promise of a lifetime......."

[farmboy]

Life is vanity.. there is nothing to it

[farmboy]

anyone we can talk with if we need help?

[gcc4426]

I used to have someone who sees my soul but she refused to see me no more, much less talk to me. I am alone.

of course, it would reach to a point nga natuok na cya. wallowing in self-pity and expressing depression kada adlaw, that's too overbearing na sab. basin d.i she tried to console you, did her best, pero you we're too engrossed with the emotions you are feeling now. not at all times nga pirmi na lang siya musabot nimo. world does not revolve around you alone.

maybe that's why she gave up on you kay you're not helping yourself man sab.
murag man gug gi-internalize gyd nimo...

if motivating you nicely wouldn't help, perhaps a provocative one would do.


i once undergone utmost depression sab sauna, there was a moment nga i felt like really giving up, and i saw an extension wire sa akong room and thought of suicide. i was on the brink nga ipasok na nakong ulo nako sa loop. pero i didn't pursue it. why? i insulted myself. nauwaw kos akong kaugalingon nga i'll end up like that lang. it would only prove nga loser ko, nga i lost the game against those who have inflicted pain on me. for sure, they'd smirk at my hearse kung mamatay ko. scorn at me. i don't want to be pitied by them. so i pushed myself harder. now, ako nang nalabwan kadaghanan sa ilaha. at first, i did it para makabaws nila...but eventually, ako na siyang gibuhat para sakong kaugalingon. to improve. to make myself better.


go find other diversion farmboy, not just iStorya.net.
get out of that room wherever you are now. magrigor imong huna2 samot.

basin maka-trigger na sab na nimo. you attempted before once, it's possible nga you'll do it again...despite saying nga it's stupid to commit suicide (as what you have posted here sa forum)
dako ang chance nga mabuhat na nimo pag usab

[farmboy]

^^ u r ryt gcc.. yes, you are right. i find wisdom in ur words, both provocative and gentle words.

i've done my time here at istorya.net and i am ever thankful and grateful. other diversion, i honestly do not really know. i am alone. no family to really love me, and i am an orphan. i've got no real friends with whom i can even share a confidence. i used to have a friend who was priest, but even he, chose to keep his distance.

btw, i gave that souvenir cartridge to my love as a keepsake and memento of a reminder that i will never do it again.. nor even entertain the thought ever again.

i guess at this point in time, she can throw that piece of cal 45 shell away.. yes.. the thoughts are back.

yes, i attempted that stupid act before, i was about to do it again when fate intervened, when fate brought the love of my life, and made me survive for a few years. now as she left, i feel like a kite, untethered.. just tossed about by turbulent winds and drafts. i know the way is down..

i am beyond medication, professional help i can never afford.. even beyond the short term numbing effects of alcohol.

i wish i was never born..

[yvonne6]

been into worse in life and made me really down and depressed, im glad i have kids after a hurtful break up from my ex who cheated big time by sleeping with my married (ex) bestfriend. had to work alone more than 8 hours a day to make it through life and support the kids. it took few years before i became better. it was tiring and draining but i cant give up for the kids. if i was only looking after myself at that time, im not sure what i could have done. years passed, i got into a relationship again, it failed, it was abusive and i was broken and battered inside, yet this time, i have become stronger. felt bad and felt too much pain but never ever thought of giving up with myself and life. there is always a brighter side of life, no matter how painful it was that we've been through. i had so much blessing that came to me yet i dont get everything i wanted in life, its a fact, we may fail at some aspects but we should not quit trying. its not easy if u have depression but its only yourself who can help you change it. just like a jobless person, u work, then ur problem is solved. a malnourished person, u feed him with nutritious food then he becomes well nourished and healthy. if u r depressed, acknowledge it, get help but help yourself too. look around you guys. when im depressed, this is what i do. i see children sleeping on the cold pavement, and i sleep in an airconditioned room. its already mid day and they haven't eaten yet, and im sitting on a table staring at hotdogs, eggs, fried rice with fruits and coffee or milk. before we start feeling being depressed, we have to be thankful first of what we already have. its important that u find someone who can listen to you and someone who you wont be afraid to tell your burdens. im not a professional but i tell u, if u really want to be happy, there is a secret to it

[Uma1010]

You have to do yoga , and try for change your environment.........And Try To Be Happy always