pde one thousand labstoris akong ibutang diri? heheh,,.
cge..panigkamuntan nako ug tell ang story sa upat ka lake nga nkamold sa akong heart
1st guy: he was my crush eeevvvveeeerrr since nakita nako xa 1st year hiskul pa ko. He was called Peput by his friends. super like jud nako ang feeling when he's around. he was my seatmate ug pirti naku kakilig everytime nga mgshare mi ug report or hatagan ko nia ug papel or mgdrawing drawing xa sa akong notebook ug dragonball characters or kng murecite xa and share his knowledge about mythology. complete turn on jud xa sa ako. he is smart and gwapo. wla nakui L sa attitude nia which is antipatiko sa tanan girls nga muconfess nga kras xa. yes, he is a heart throb and yes i love him for that. mao d ko ngapakita sa akong feelings nia kai basi d na pud ko nia tagdon. i was so scared. kaso lan, naay timawang gpakalat akong secret feelings sa tibuok HS department as in TIBUOK HS DEPARTMENT ug pirti jud naku ulawa. that day was the day i've met INSECURITY. waa na xa tigtingog nako. d nako nia duulan. masking mulingi man lan, d na nia buhaton. as much as possible, iya pa jud kong likayan to the point nga even ang pgtouch sa amung skin kai ginadirian nia. i felt so ugly. inasmuch as i wanted to hate him, d man jud mugana ui..samot man nuon ko kainlab. second year hs, i've heard nga ang gusto niang babae knang boyish. i even heard nga kras nia akong barkada because she's smart and boyish pud. that opted me to get a boycut hairstyle and i became boyish to the point nga naa koi nkafling nga girl. OMG maxado! i became a lesbo for like a few months because i had gone crazy with the guy. third year came and it was prom, idk what fate did peo he was chosen as my partner. i was enthralled!!! uber paningot ko atong dance practice namu kai d ko kaconcentrate when he is that close and i could smell his scent. i even accidentally stepped on his left foot which ruined everything and he requested to change his partner. haaay! fourth year came, i still love him. i surrendered to the fact that there is absolutely no cure to what i am feeling for him however, i promised myself to get a man who can love me more and would not make me feel insecure the way he did. in that way, malimtan nako xa.
2nd guy: i met him thru text. the name is vhong. textmates then eb..u know the classic modern ligawan thingy..i fell inlove with his kindness sa text pa lan daan. but then when i met him, he was uhh..how do i put this..uhh...kuan, uhm..ngongo man gud xa..operated though but still i can see the scar and the way he talks is so difficult to understand..*sorry vhong..TT* although hatid sundo ko nia sa skul, d nako xa gnapameet sa akong friends or sa akong family kai mauwaw jud ko..peo goodness! grabe keu iyang kabuotan and he respects me that much. i loved him for that. he made me feel good about myself. that was the time i met my HEART. but the world was never kind and nadala ko sa mga gnapanulti sa kalibutan, i broke up with him because of his physical traits. he cried. i didn't. but there and then i knew, my heart will be sorry for it.
3rd guy. Ken iyang name. we both have the same wavelength. we think the same things. d na kelangan ug words. we only need to look at each other and bam! we connected. he loves mythology just like Peput and he is such a gentleman and he makes me feel good about myself just like Vhong. our friends would cheer for us. ingon pa nila, there is nothing more better for a couple than us. we love the same music. we dig the same food. he said we are perfect for each other. and i couldn't agree more. but the shadows of my past is but cruel. Ken is my KARMA. we didn't know at all. it was just when i met his family and they asked questions about me and my family that we found out that we were cousins to the 3rd degree. grabe tong adlawa toh. murag lami keu itawag ug tsunami ug mgpakaanod nlan. pirting sakita! whoo! i was about to give up but he decided to hang on to us. our friends would say nga pde na mkipagrealsyon sa cousin nga 3rd degree. he was totally into it too. but my family and his family were so against it. there is nothing we could do. my heart was already in a coma that time. d na gusto nia muginhawa. kung kabalo lan mu sa feeling nga mura kag zombie mglakaw lakaw peo inside empty shell ka. i hated my family, the rules, even the government that time. we had to break up and follow morality. deym morality! i resorted to listening to metal, dark music, i even went to convention so that i can become wiccan. anything will do just to make me deviate from society. he is married now. i hope he is happy.
4th and final guy. Jeremiah. the prophet. the one i solemnly asked for. the one who made me believe that there is God. he saved me. i am happy. the end.
tagbaw mug binasa nuh? kulang pa nah..hahah