Daghang nangabuang karong panahuna!!!

[Blackjellybean27]

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i think it's especially true when it comes to stress mabuang jud ka... like i think hapit na jud ko mbuang sa last job ko. as in, stressed kaau. d jud ko kasabot ato na time. mayu nlng gani k ni undang jud ko did2. d ka malain ingnon ka na you're very smart, intelligent, etc one time,then kalit lang ka ingnon na pod na stupid. hay nlng. plus, i did everything na jud sa trabaho ko ha.. as in d na gani ko maka uli sayo k naa nlng jud ko sa ofis. i spent 12-16 hours in the office. mag cge na mi away sa partner ko k wla na jud ko time at home... unya when i get home k i had to attend to my months old baby pa.. naka remember ko that time, nag huna2x na jud ko suicide, kng unsa2x nalng na huna2x ko i swear hapit na cguro ko mabuang that time. ay ambot! my partner had to tell me, its okay if d ka na mag work.. etc.. in the end, ingon na jud sya ayaw na balik ha!
na pressure ko big time coz my dad wanted me to keep my job. its not about the money daw ingon sya its about keeping the job. plus ingon pod partner ko na i have to keep my job. at first he would listen to me rant about my job, in the end, i think it was getting tiring for him as well seeing it was a no good company and i kept complaining and i told him i have to keep my job, i really have to keep my job. so pressure from him, pressure from papa, pressure from that stupid cheapskate company amounted to me wanting to die nlng. ugggggh! i felt that was the only way out. believe it or not, i emailed my dad about me wanting to leave the company and he said oh tinuod jud diay ang ingon sa student nako.. and i said yes papa its all true. then i dont know what happened basta next na pod niya na email k you have to stick to that job k wla perfect na company. hangtod karon d pa kasabot papa nako about the company. me, im sure i wasnt just imagining what happened to me there. i was actually preparing to go to hell every single working day. ang mga posts ko sa facebook ko all about my job and how hellish it was for already.. ah basta im so glad ok na ko ron. temporary insanity lang jud to akoa cguro. plus the fact na i just gave birth when i joined the company. i could credit that as post partum depression as well.
arrggggh! first time ko pagawas bout my experience with that company... it hit me man gud when i read your post TS. i felt that young lady was me. :P with the matching suyaon co worker pa jud. i even thought of burning down that stupid company.. hahahaha! okay na ko now, promise. i just keep on shaking my head whenever i think of those 4 months i was there.

[messy_babycate]

@blackbelly: maka-relate ko nimo sis... to be honest mahadlok ko kay basin I'm on my way to being mentally incapable.

Been promoted recently so grabe ang pressure to perform well... Wala pa ko buhii sa akong prev position kay wa pay ipuli so mura kog mabuang kay duha akong gihunahuna... Naa pa juy upcoming operation sa akong baby then wa jud ko money so di ko katiwas sa akong tasks kay magsige kog hunahuna unsa ako buhaton. Inig daytime (kay graveyard man ako shift) magbantay ko sako 1 year old nga anak.. Wa mi parents so ako ang papa sa house while ang akong 18-years old nga sister ang mama... we have siblings pa nga 8 and 5 years old.

Makathink ko usahay mag-suicide to end the suffering kay di pa bya kaayo ko dugay nanganak then perme ko magutman kay sahay matog nalang ko sa kakapoe bisan wala kaon... barely 4 hours ra ako sleep everyday.

Pero whenever mag-tan-aw ko sa baby kay maglagot ko sa akong self nganong nakathnk ko ug in-ato.grrr

suya kaayo ko sa uban like my partner nga ma-control ilang self...dili mag-panic or maparanoid. Ksab-an gud ko niya if muingon ko nga maboang na ko sa kadaghan gihunahuna...

the only difference sa ato situation is I love my job... I love almost evry bit of it except sa never-ending supe calls and the client's requirements with impossible deadlines.

daghan lang jud ko gihunahuna karon maong musamot akong stress...