I read that Freud would have his patients lie on his couch and exercise what he called 'free association.' He would let them just speak whatever random thought that came into their heads as a way to bring the contents of the subconscious (stuff we normally suppress) into open communication with the consciousness. Lying in bed the other day I tried it (writing down words as they came) and discovered my subconscious fancies herself a poet. Here's what I came up with (after a little editing.)
Kisses, embraces, and nowhere places
Forgotten faces, not my own
I hope.
I believe, but what is belief?
Reality exists and is what it is
Who can change it, not me?
Curtains and laces, blended faces
Abandoned places, not my own
Maybe ours, if only for a summer's past
But certainly not forever gone
I see you there, and here, and everywhere
But nowhere, really; not my own
I miss you, I hate you, I may actually love you
My perpetual indecision is known.
Semantics, hysterics
Philosophic, neurotic,
Oh, when will I be free
Of these cages and wages
Of war against nature
Of unbearable lightness of being
Rhyme and meter, and picky eaters
Fishing in the sea
Or lake as the case may be
Cheese and tomatoes, green beans, potatoes
All of it I see
Or saw
Or hoped to see
Time is playing tricks on little old me
Advance, retreat,
No one to beat me but he
Submission, admission
Repression, cognition
Oh, how I long to be free
Warm hands, soft lips, wet tongue
Your tongue on me
Sensitive places, tips, and spaces
Maybe sensation will set me free.
Secrets, where is he?
Lonely road, where is she?
'Exit here' I wish it said somewhere
Just exactly how to be
Liberated, non-frustrated
Nihilistic, emancipated
Gone, this inertia of ennui.
Angst, self-doubt
Self-reproach, self-abdication.
Oh how I wish I were free.
Emotion, you treason of reason,
Leave me be!
It is transcendence i seek.
Sweet and unencumbered,
Simplicity
*Analyze that, Sigmund Freud. What does it all mean?