I know there are a lot of things to think of
and I need to think of them for now
but then I don't know why I cant and
I always find myself out of air and missing you.
I wake up lately and find my pillows with tear stains
I know that I've been crying in my dreams and I know
when I wake up the sun won't matter, the people around
me will not make me feel any better and the air,
it will lose its essence.
I will die gasping for breath
because I refuse to believe and will never
believe that i lost you when you were never
really mine, even if you loved me and told me so,
you can just walk away anytime and leave me..
Right now, I'm denying the smile and the happiness in me
because I know you only thought that loved me, that was all
that really mattered and since the day you were gone, I stopped breathing because
I know you're not going to be there anymore.
hmm, Random.. though too emotional, dont you think?