need a little help here!
i badly need your advice mga bro and mga sis....
I am a loner type of guy.. wla kaayo koy friends whom I can share my sentiments, mao ako nalang ipaagi through istorya.net for me to have an outlet of my feelings..
My girlfriend just recently broke up with me. We've been together for 3 years and 8months and she also happens to be my bestfriend. The thing is, it's hard for me to accept the fact that we're no longer together. She was my first girlfriend and I love her truly and deeply. She left for Dubai last year because she has work there. I just couldn't understand why she has to break up with me. Siguro, na fall out of love siya nako since layu mi sa usa't usa or maybe she fell in love with someone else. Basta what she told me was, better friends nalang daw mi because cge lang daw mi away and dli mi magkasinabot. She even told me na for 3 yrs plus namo, wla daw mi ni grow as a person. She told me na give up na sya nako coz gikapoy na daw cya sa ako bati na batasan.. Yes, I must admit that naa pud ko negative na attitude.. Possessive daw ko and insecure, selfish, then dli ko mu trust dayun sa tanan nya gipangsulti, plus demanding daw ko, and dli daw ko kasabot sa iya situation; but you know, bsan ing.ani ako batasan, I have loved her the best way I could.. Ever since naging kami, I have never cheated on her. Bsan naay mga girls mag una2x make sa move, kanang mag flirt2x nko, I did not give in because Im faithful to my girlfriend. You know I am not the type of guy na kabaw magbinuang ug babae because I came from a broken family and I don't want someday when I'll have a family on my own, dko gusto guba pud. I know for a fact na the usual cause of broken families kay infidelity, adultery and so on; that's why I don't want to give in into temptations and I also don't want to hurt my girlfriend. When she was still here in Cebu, everyday mi nagkuyog bsan Christmas and New Year, we spent it together bsan kami ra duha sa iya apartment mingaw kaayo then ako relatives nag party and nag enjoy sa amo haus; I always find excuses para sugtan ko sa ako mom mulakaw. All I know is that I want to be with her always not to take advantage na tungod kami ra duha mag intimate dayun -NO! ( I really respect her). I want to be with her because it hurts me kung alone sya because I know lonely sya bsta alone sya since larga pud iya parents. Last year, naana sya sa Dubai, halos everyday sya mu call nko sa cellphone. Everyday mi magchat. Pero, sugod sa January this year, ni cold lang sya kalit. When I confronted her why kalit lang sya ka cold nko, she told me na busy daw kaayo sya sa iya work kay sya nalang isa sa iya position kay nanaktakay ug employees ang ila company tungod sa financial crises. So sya ga pas.an sa mga paper works- which is a lot I'm guessing. I even teased her na basin naana sya lain uyab sa Duabi mao dedma nalang ko nya. She told me na daghan daw nagcourt nya didto mga pinoy pud ug mga arabo but she told me na ni refuse daw cya kay committed daw sya nko. Few days ago, nagstart ko observe nya.. wla nko mag send message, wala nko paramdam nya.. I thought magwonder sya ngano wala ko paramdam na nya but instead she told me na magtxt man ko nya or dli, Ok ra nya.. Before, dli cya ing.ana, mangita dayun na cya nko bsta dli lang ko makatxt nya but now everythin's changed.. She told me na better we'll remain as bestfriends kay na manhid na daw sya.. She told me na gihatag ra daw sya ni God nko to guide me daw. Gikapoy na daw sya nko..
Now that we're through, I have never felt so alone. It burns my heart with sadness and longing..
I know nothin' stays the same forever; that change is the only constant in this world.. but it just feels sad to miss someone so badly especially when both of you shared an unforgettable relationship.
thank you for reading my dear brothers and sisters...
godbless..