"People who love to eat are always the BEST people."
Julia Child
ive tried suicide jud, mga thrice na ciguro, more on las2x jud...hehe, pero wala ko plano maghikog jud.. ako rah kay naa koi kapagawasan sa kalagot..pls, ayaw mog suon.. grabeh...ang pain kay unbearable..tinuod nga di xa maka solve sa problem, pero maka-iban siya sa depression and mugaan ako paminaw... weird noh? naa jud tao ana! usa nako...
I DID IT 3 TIMES
1ST 7-8 AKO EDAD, NA HOSPITAL JUD KO ATO NA DEHYDRATE KO TUNGOD SA TAMBAL AKO GIPANG INOM. MIXED THE LIQUIDS AKO MAKITA-AN,AKO GI TIGUM PIILA KA DAYS. PAGKAPUNO AKONG GIINOM. (NA TAGAM KO GAMAY ATO)
2ND COLLEGE NA KO. GRABI PROBLEMA SA BALAY, PAMINAW NAKO DILI NJUD NKO KAYA.. I GATHERED ALL TABLETS NPUD, DAYON AKO GIINOM TANAN. WALA JUD LAING TAWO ATO.THEN SECONDS AFTER KO INUM TANANG TAMBAL KOYAPAN KO DIRETSO, THEY RUSHED TO THE KITCHEN KAY KADUNGOG SILA NAA NATUMBA SA FLOOR.. WELL,WELL, WELL, IGO PUD SILA NAABOT SA KITCHEN NKABANGON NPUD KO KAY ANG WATER CONTAINER NA AKONG GIGUNITAN PG INUM SA TAMBAL, NA HUWAD RA PUD SA AKONG NAWONG, NYA BUGNAW TUBIG AW NKAMATA RAPUD KO .HAHHA!! BUT GITABANG PUD KO ATO NILA. KC I HAD TROUBLE BREATHING DAYON, MG CGE KO DIGWA BUT DILI PUD KO KASUAGA.
3RD THE LAST LAST ATTEMPT AND DILI NJUD MASUNDAN... NOT REALLY HIKOG. BUT MORE OF PAGAWAS SA AKONG GIBATI... I START HURTING MYSELF WITH BLADE,PRO SKIN DEEP RPUD KAY SAKIT MN (HEHEH!) BUT NG BLEED JUD PUD SYA. KC DILI NKO MADALA PAIN,ANG DILI KO KABALO UNSAON PG EXPRESS.MOBO AKONG TOLERANCE SA EMOTIONAL PAIN, ALSO TO REMIND MYSELF UG GIUNSA KO PASAKIT ATONG TAWHANA, PARA EVERYTIME MODUOL SYA, MAKITA NAKO AKONG WOUNDS AND WILL BE REMINDED UG UNSA PASAKIT IYANG GIDALA SA AKONG LIFE (emo) EFFECTIVE MN PUD. KAY AFTER THAT DAY MAS PERSISTENT KO SA AKONG PAGPALAYO..
DILI LNG PUD PAG SAMAD SA AKONG SELF, I HAD BRUSHES PUD BUT LAIN NA INCIDENT, AKO BUNALAN AKONG SELF UG HANGER, I WANT TO FEEL THE PAIN PHYSICALLY KAY MAS DALI KO MAULIAN THAT WAY (BRUTAL GAMAY. HEHEHE!!!)
LESSONS LEARNED, STRONGER NOW, DILI NA MG HIKOG, DILI NA MG EMO. PRO OK RA MG "INO" INO.A. (O.A)
hmmm.. hapit pud ko uy... wala ma dayon kay ni hug ang akong bb and said iloveu. and saw from his eyes that everything will be ok
wahaha...funny lagi ang part na magbunal ug hanger...gikahoy nalang tah to nimu..hehe..funny jud girl..lovei t!!!
ako I did before overdose and resulta grabe nga hilanat...well karon nkasabot nko ug unsa ang life so dili nato mausab...wlay paingnan if mgpakamatay ta aron talkdan ang problema but motoo ko na when your young na ana jud ka kadali makahuna huna ug hikog.
im young...young hearted...hehehe..pero if you attempt suicide because of someone, come to think of it..that person will only remember you for quiet sometime then forgets you after a month or more...so, why waste life for someone who could not remember you forever?!
many times i tried to commit suicide... but in the end i'd decide to rather live and have
more opportunities in life, escape the depression and have fun... forget everything and
live a good life... don't care about the problem, care about me living every second of
my life.. happy... i never wanted to be emotional... i always wanted myself to be happy...
that prevent me from committing suicide.. and on some rare occasion, save me from it...
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