Merged: All Love Stories

[kenshinsasuke]

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i just couldn't believe i read the whole (merged) thread. lingaw gyud ko.

i will share mine later...

wait lang mi sa imu e-share,..thanks daan,..

[akosipiaya]

sad love story..tsk3

[lady_blackrose]

taas-taas jud ni siya guys...naa ra ninyo ug nahan mo mubasa...hehehe.

i know everyone have experienced the feelings where in everytime u reminisce of ur first love it can make u smile for awhile coz thinking back of the silly things uve done...but at the same time...the bitterness why u didnt end up together. i was 17 when it all first started. my uncle from canada came back with his bosses. we had a family reunion. eversince i really hate crowd so if there is a party of close friend or family...though i really hate the idea of going still i have too coz my parents take no for an answer. so in every party that i go...i always stay in the corner....watching people...sometimes eavesdropping and then commenting on the conversation by myself. im not the loner type coz i have heaps of friends but i keep them at arms lenght coz i trust no one.theyre only a few that i can consider as a close friend. so to get this all started... i noticed this guy...he is like 7 years ahead of me. he was there sitting too...and it seems like he is like me...i even wondered what was on his mind. if it was the same as mine. was he eavesdropping too? well...im sure everyone can noticed him coz his one of my uncle's boss...( son of his boss), his red-haired, 5'8,average built, in other words...his good looking though he has some freckles on his face. (typical caucasian). i was busy observing him...trying to figure out what he was thinking until i heard my sis called me to eat...told her later i will. so when i turn back again to him..he wasnt there anymore. i sighed and suddenly someone talked behind me "are u looking for me?", i was caught off-guard. i was stunned...speechless.i didnt know he knows. it was really embarassing on my part yet i tried to be defensive through defense mechanism. "nope.im sorry sir...who are u?" (and thats another silly question to ask coz they were being introduced earlier.) and then he said " u didnt really pay attention to whatever is goin on earlier huh? or were u just to busy observing all the people in this party?" again i was shocked... all i had in mind is..his a psychopath...how could he know what i was thinking instead of answering him back...i kept my distance to him...sat away from everyone...and i told myself that as much as possible...dont look at him anymore. i took a drink on the buffet table...went back on my seat and played my straw... and then i felt someone who sat beside me..." you really have this cold aura that people find u mysterious" he said...i know he was trying to open up a conversation with me but i remained silent. pa- way paki effect. but he kept goin and goin... (i know u speak english..of course u do. ur sent to one of the prestigious schools here right? or is it just ur way to block people from trying to know u? ive noticed that u dont mingle to anyone here aside from ur family?how come? dont u have friends here?this is supposed to be a family reunion and ----: he was so blah blah blah that i couldnt stand him interrogating me anymore. "a family reunion and ur not a family" i said sharply,rudely. " do u know what?i value my privacy ALOT, and i dont give a sh*t to whatever u think of me...and maybe ur right...i dont mingle with anyone aside from my family but what is it to u?is this somewhat a job interview that u have to know everything about me or everyone? well if it is...so u know by now..its my uncle who is working with u...but not me and i am not interested of talking to u nor applying for a job. so if u dont mind sir... i want to be alone." i told myself right after i said it to him when i saw him walking away from me that finally ive said it...! but of all the parties ive went...that became the most unforgetable night...the most interesting night. back there i was sitting and now its the other way around..he is the one staring at me. it was somewhat like he is trying to figure out if theres anything wrong with me. some girls at nearly his age... ( i think they were my relatives...or cousins. not sure) were trying to get hsi attention through asking him if he needs drink or food or whatever.theyd tried to be sweet but look at this guy... every answer of him was cut short. i was even wondering to myself without looking at him that there must be something really really wrong to this guy that he didnt pay attention to my cousins at his age while he wanted to talk to me. the party ended...we waved goodbye to everyone...the car engine started when my aunt called me and handed me a box and it was a cellphone kit. i was so thankful to her coz when i looked at the box picture..it was the latest launch 6600.she smiled at me and said... thats not from me but theres a note inside the box. i went back to the car,with my sissy so envious of what ive got. i was excited to the read the note and was surprised again that its him who gave me the phone. and in the note says " i hope this can make u smile youre new friend, chris." and yeah right...i couldnt help but smile.

we started texting to each other everyday...ive been so busy with my phone that i couldnt handle my household chores anymore.LOL. ( we have nannies but my old folks prefer us to work things on our own without relying to maids.)ive asked him how come he knew i didnt have a phone. he told me that he saw a family portrait with me in it in my uncle's office and he started asking my uncle things about me. i told myself..this guy is weird...and his 7 years older than me.hahaha.thats when the friendship all began. we started hanging out...going to malls.they stayed here for 20 days.been everywhere with him...till we had bonding. he was nice afterall. my family and friends started teasing us...but he more looks like a big bro to me. he was overprotective..in a week it was like ive known him since forever.

within 20 days there was already us. we've started dating.at 17 ive learned what love is. until they have to leave...we have to be apart.... that was the most painful day of my life. to be apart of him although he promised me that his gonna keep in touch.his gonna call me and i should not forget to text him too. i cried that night coz i started missing him already but true to his word he kept his promise. he texted me the next morning saying that theyve arrived safe. we've been in a long distance relationship so i know what it is like. but once or twice a year he comes to phil.to visit me. i thought it was never ending....he was entirely there for me. in our second anniversary...we celebrated it in bora...that was the most unforgetable moment of my life when he sang the "harana". we were sitting on the sand with out feet in the water...i was playing with the water when he started singing...i couldnt stop myself from giggling coz he couldnt even pronounced the tagalog words properly...i reckon it took him awhile to memorize the song. but it was so overwhelming,so sweet that i felt like i was in cloud nine.LOL. then he PROPOSED...right there. he was so full of surprises. he told me we've been together all through this way...i was just 19.i didnt know what to answer him.i wasnt even sure if i was ready to tie the knot but looking at him i told myself.que sera sera... whatever gonna be tomorrow...ill just cross the bridge when i get there anyways its gonna be the two of us from now on. everything happened so fast...wedding prep...though it was just a simple one..only close families are invited until my happy ending love story has to end...i was sitting infront of my pc...bored.no one to talk to...he wasnt online.out of curiosity i hacked his account.i got through all the secret questions. i went through his emails and was shocked of what ive found out. i went to DRAFT,he has an unsent mail for me and it says

"Babe all along ive been honest to you. your the best thing that ever happened to me and nothings gonna change that but i dont want us to get married without telling you these " i am into drugs and ive cheated to you ONCE.but that was only once...thinking of u made me miss u so much. the only thing i regret is the thing that ive done it to u.among all people it was u who i have cheated. the most important person in my life. i hope u can still forgive me and we can start all over again.in a clean slate. i hope...i dunno what to say...i have to say it here coz i couldnt bear saying it to u face-to-face.i dont want to break ur heart...thats the last thing i wanna do and believe me...i would trade everything i have now except u to undo the past and rectify my mistake. i love u so much that now that i have found u...id never let you go."


i just noticed i was crying...its like the whole world have fell on me...i was so devastated..wrecked...the feeling was so unexplainable. my head was jammed...my sis was at my door standing wearing her bridesmaid dress that she is supposed to wear to my wedding and then she noticed i was crying. "no wedding" thats all i said. theyve been begging me to tell them the truth...whats goin on...chris have been calling....34 missed calls in just the day. i couldnt stand everytime my phone rings so i answered it finally...he asked me where did i go why i didnt answer his calls yesterday,how come mom called and said whats wrong with us that theres no wedding anymore.he had heaps of questions till i told him him that is not me who owes him an explanation...its the other way around.he was pretending he couldnt get what i was trying him to say so i told him everything about the emails.

that day ended my happy ending story. he've been trying to reach me a couple times but i remained cold.
i thought i knew everything..my life with him was full of surprises...thats when i started hating surprises.
its been a couple months that i havent heard from him since we ended our engagement.i told myself..finally he got tired of pestering me.then i got a call from my uncle... feeling sorry for what happened to us..he said my ex explained to him. and felt sorry again for my loss. i was so confused.what loss?he didnt even know where to begin...to cut it short...

my ex had a heart problem...thats the caused of his death. i felt so guilty that the whole time around he was there for me...but i wasnt to him.all he wanted is for us to get married in his remaining days.i know no one would believe this...i even thought that this situations only happened in novels...sad but true it happened to me.how i wish it just happened to someone else...not me. its really bad....very bad...

i dunno if i could love someone as much as i have loved him.im married now...and i dont want to compare the feelings i had for him and my feelings for my hubby.i love both and they differ in personality...everything.sometimes i wonder where and what are we now if he is still here? if ive just forgive him and tolerate what he did?too many qiuestions...but couldnt find the answers...i honestly feel so guilty of how our relationship ended up. i couldnt help but blame myself for just thinking on myself. on what he did...i didnt even think of the entire time weve been through. i trusted him but after everything..its like i have loved the wrong person..or should i say... i have loved the person i thought he was.i fell inlove with all his pretensions...but despite that...i sometimes miss him...his everything a girl would want.


but if u were me guys...are u gonna tolerate deceit just coz u love him?i really do believe that once a cheater is always a cheater.thats why i was firm when i said its all done.

everytime i look back...everytime i think of him this is what i can tell myself...

we may not end up being together in my happy ending story still he is my FIRST LOVE.


sorry guys...taas jud xa.

[Hot Ice]

whoah!!! laina sa feeling oy.. dli gyud ka maka balo sa "what if" atong taohana kay wala na permanently.

[lady_blackrose]

whoah!!! laina sa feeling oy.. dli gyud ka maka balo sa "what if" atong taohana kay wala na permanently.

i thought way mubasa kay taas raba jud.lol.yeah...u never can tell when is the person's gonna leave u.how i wish it never happened to me.ive learnt my lesson bro...never expect anything from anyone that way u wont be disappointed.

[rtarheelgirl]

this is so painful but nice.... =D di mageslos imong hubby if he's like gonna read this?

[kamuix4]

nice story sis...murag mag salida

[lyan]

wow.. sakit naman nun..

[jaide]

life has it's own twists and turns..ana jud na sis..
everything's got to be worth a memory..
maka bagbag damdamin man sis..hehe

[YJOB]

first love never dies...