hello bro's and sis'. i need help cuz i dunno what to do..
im no player and im just looking for a girl to love but i dunno if i should
(sentences with a parenthesis like these are my points of view and is subject to your judgement)
i saw this girl, who wel call "peach", on a yearly event. i thought she was pretty yet i just went on and enjoy myself. some days after, i was able to acquire her number and texted her out of the need of promoting my work. it was then i realized that maybe i could get her to be a friend and maybe more.
i continued to text peach without any reply from her.it didnt matter (cuz i didnt have anything to loose anyways). then summer came when i got a reply from her. she finally texted and replied to me. during those initial texts she showed some side of her which was very sweet.and she revealed to me that she was crying and is hurt (from her previous relationship). then we bacame textmates. we texted each other with crazy replies and tel each other of our everyday norms. of course its not perfect and there were times i gave up. but somehow it persevered.
the day came when we finally met. she invited me over to a bar where she usually soaks up. (this gave me an impression that she wasnt happy) i am a torpe type of guy il admit but i knew i would have to pass through this so i went trying not to shake. then i found myself meeting her at last (peach gained a bit of weight but she's still as cute as before).
weeks passed, i realized that she is an extroverted girl who loves to party and most of all "shes a natural player". (this is a big contrast to my attitude for i am an introverted, thinker with a thing for music.) she brings in every meeting a bunch of guys (made me feel that she is aligning herself with a cleopatra-esque sort of fantasy and cuddles up a bit w em)(..player) i changed my game and became aloof and unweilding. funny thing i didnt expect is that it worked! it made me stand out by not being a lapdog for peach and this made me the winner.
when i had a chance i attacked her sense of play(or playerhood), i found out she was a vulnerable and hurt girl. this made me think twice about stopping the pursuit and thing went on with us.
but we have lil in common. so im still not sure (but im not sure also cuz it could be me not sharing as much)
then again, her actions considers me a legit suitor(and she's hott!)
recently i asked her out, and i got indianed. im kinda pissed by her (cuz she said she was on her way and i was preparing everything then poof!). then 2 quiet weeks passed, just when i was finally over her, she texted me, fooled me into meeting her and instead was about deal me some college plan.(i wasnt pissed by the selling crap, it was her reason to get me there..which was she wanted to talk to me cuz i thought she learned her lesson..waa!!)(it made think otherwise that she has no sense feelings or could use feeling for her advantage.. i mean, she didnt even thought that i was angry that she stucked me up?)
last friday while i was organizing a party in a local bar along with my class, she shows up (cute as always) unexpectedly and kissed me im front of my classmates (they dont know about her..this will only make things more difficult for me now that theyr going to hound me w peach for the entire sem!) the entire program i gave her the cold shoulder and didnt talk to her. when she a called for me i purposely turned away. she said i sucked and i just laughed and went on.(i mean didnt she get the picture that i was angry w her already?)
the morning after, as i started to weigh things, i felt bad...
i could say that we didnt really even sit down and talk about ourselves officially and maybe and she doesnt know me well enough so how could i just let her go?
on the other hand, she is a black magic woman, or a innocent girl who doesnt know she's wreaking to guys everywhere
i am stronger now than my torpe self before but i still need a 2nd opinion.
its intrams week,
should i talk to her and make things clear about ourselves(me first move-wussy boy)?
or should i continue to give the angry treatment?
in lieu to that, should i expect that she will reply and take her back, or go on and leave it an open wound(loose a hott girl)?
what should i do?