Originally Posted by
werty
long story short, i have this girl that i like. she also somhow likes me. but lets just say that we are in a situation where in we are still getting to know more about each other. and have been sharing almost anything about ourselves at this point.
last night as usual we had a walk and talk thing since her place is just near where i walk.she offered to let me see her apartment.when we got there we continued talking. she had this illness called "hyper-ventilate" (u can search this illness on net) and she keeps on telling me that it was ok to die,etc etc etc. she was trying to tell me that she was ready to die anythime this illness struck etc etc. of course i got worried soo much and kept on telling her do really just want to go and leave us who loves you? etc etc.
she kept on saying these lines(or somthing similar) and when it was time for me to go. i asked her to come near me. i then suddenly "hug" her whithout her consent while while i kept telling her how worried i was and was crying a bit hoping she would understand how i felt. seconds after she pushed me away and she stayed away saying that she is now afraid of how i look etc etc. i stood there also shocked of what i did and i see the face of a scared child infront of me. she then walked me towards the door coz she said she forgot she was to buy something. when we were outside, i went the opposite way she went.
a few minutes later, i called her. i said sorry for what i just did. and i understood why she got scared. i said i wasnt able to stop how i felt coz i was really worried(maybe it wasnt the right word to say). she said that it was ok but i know it wasnt....
now, i just want to know how up i am now. coz right now i dont know how to face her. i am a kind of person that stays aways from person who has hurt me, but this case, i hurt her i guess and i was ashamed of what i did. i know she is now sacred... but what can i do now? if she wont be talking to me, i dont have that courage to go near her again knowing i dont know how she is feeling....
T_T HELP!