Quarter-life Crisis

[jonjie_b]

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well now i know why...i hope other 32 year olds read this and i hope u guys find it useful.


They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you
stop going along with the crowd and start realizing
that there are many things about yourself that you
didn't know and may not like. You start feeling
insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or
two, but then get scared because you barely know
where you are now. You start realizing that people
are selfish and that, maybe, those
friends that you thought you were so close to
aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever
met, and the people you have lost touch with are
some of the most important ones.

What you don't recognize is that they are realizing
that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or
insincere, but that they are as confused as you.
You look at your job... and it is not even close to
what you thought you would be doing, or maybe
you are looking for a job and realizing that you are
going to have to start at the bottom and that
scares you. Your opinions have gotten stronger.
You see what others are doing and find yourself
judging more than usual because suddenly you
realize that you have certain boundaries in your life
and are constantly adding things to your list of
what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute,
you are insecure and then the next, secure.

You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your
life. You feel alone and scared and confused.
Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and
cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize
that the past is drifting further and further away,
and there is nothing to do but stay where you are
or move forward. You get your heart broken and
wonder how someone you loved could do such
damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why
you can't meet anyone decent enough that you
want to get to know better. Or maybe you love
someone but love someone else too and cannot
figure out why you are doing this because you
know that you aren't a bad person. One night
stands and random hook ups start to look cheap.
Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to
look pathetic. You go through the same emotions
and questions over and over, and talk with your
friends about the same topics because you cannot
seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans, money, the future and
making a life for yourself... and while winning the
race would be great, right now you'd just like to be
a contender! What you may not realize is that
everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our
best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard
as we can to figure this whole thing out.

[shoti]

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