I maybe very much sexually attracted to girls, but I always wanted to settle down with a guy..
Been there, done that TS!.. almost the same experience as you had,but in my case, I left my man for this b!tch!.. all I can say is that, stop fooling yourself on loving someone, who cares less about you.. You will never realize that, until you get hurt that much..
that kind of relationship has nowhere to go.. trust me..