i was used to love a person in davao...2yrs ago.it was extremely the best moment of my life.
by the way im a gay. but not that typical gay you think. cause i really hate my self if someone would think nga "ai gay cya,so their could be possibility guys will not respect". anyhow, to start with my story.
i was assigned in davao before as the head of the company i work. we opened branch their and syempre we have employees from davao.i do have 3 girls and 3 boys na mga staff in the branch. one gurl,let just name her "ann". she was one of my pinaka so-od nga staff. cause she used to get socialize with me when i was their,the two girls is not that type nga go sa mga inoman. two of those boys kai cousin ni ann.first, i never had any intentions nor any pagnanasa for him because his just a staff of mine. but as the days goes by will staying in davao and as i know him more.something happened to my feelings na hindi ko ma explained. each and every time we hang out nga wala cya, it seems i feel so bored. we enjoyed our company every time we hang out.cause syempre if wala na sa work friends na ang turing ko sa kanila.but for jan, it seems it was so different from the other boys nga staff nako.as the days go by na hapit nako mu balik here in cebu, na feel najud nako na naa nakoi something na feel towards niya which i can't explain.so i tell ann about the felling towards him. then she suddenly said,hala mao diay lain na imo na feel ug ako kuno mga lihok.kai lage dili naman ko doul kaayo nya.mao to i cry each and every night cause i know naai nasayop sa ako na feel towards ni jan.im just a human being na maka feel pod ug love.mao to, to cut the story short.the night before my flight to cebu.nag party mi whole night sa house nila ann sa rooftop ug ddto nami nag hinilakay cause few hours nalang dili nako kita nya.mao to ni ana si ann nga tell him nalang daw kung unsa ako na feel towards nya.pero ang ako man gud,dli ko nahan mo tell personaly cause mahadlok ko basig lainon nya ug sabot.nya mawala among friendshp which is close na au mi.mao to i wrote a letter and the long sleeve nga iya ganahan sa ako.i put it on a pouch. all the feelings i feel for him i wrote it down sa letter.wala ko kbaw ug unsaon nako if he will accept the feeling i had for him.mao to pag balik nako diri cebu all of my staf kai ni ana sila unsa daw ako gesuwat sa letter kai nganu daw dli na cya mag tingog.on that moment he bought a cellphone para lang maka text nako.iya pa gani geprenda ang ang kwentas nga iya gehatag sa iya mom para lang maka buy ug cp.few minutes from the time my staffs texted me, nag text napod cya nako ug and saying "hi,si jan ni.save my number".all of the sudden my heart beats like ambot..mura nako ug dili maka ginhawa sa kalipay.i asked him why he do that, he said naa lang syai tao nga gusto niya textsan.mao to ala jd cya mu tell kinsa.from then we texted each other and asking why daw sa kadaghan cya pa.mao to i tell him pod nga sgro sa tanan quality sa guy nga ako gepangita naa niya.but unfortunately mga Istoryans,wala nami nag communicate on the day sa akong bday.i dunno why.from that ni kalit alng jud cya ug ka wagtang.and dunno why.manawag ko sa ako mga staff ato that time,kaso dili cya makig talk.mao diay to mga friends, ge uyab diay niya si ann nga iya rapod second degree cousin.it was so painful for me at that time.knowing ge iro ka sa imong friend, sa tao nga nag tou ka nga imong kasaligan.3yrs passed.until now we haven't seen each other pa.nor we havent contact each other.though naa cya fb,kaso naa na cya uyab or asawa bato niya...
pila ko ka months keep on crying and waiting mga mu text man lang cya nor he will tell me why does it happened.
but until now, still it was an open item for me that was never closed.
unitl now im still hoping that one day magka storya mi ug magka kita.
but i dont know if im ready for that.
still dont have courage to meet the guy i used to love in the wrong place at the wrong time.....
what you think guys.?am i wrong for letting my feelings towards him.?i need your advised cause till now.hes still on my heart....
hope all will respect me for posting this thread...thank you