Hi Nikki Pee

Being 16, I am in a period of confusion, which normally happens to most everybody during the adolescent years. I may still be undergoing physical as well as emotional changes, which actually started when I became pubescent. The time of pubescence through late adolescence (late teens) is really a period of psychological storm and stress when young people like me feel. I am going through a time of trying to find myself, my true identity as a girl, or maybe even realize that I may be somewhere in between.

I realize the crisis I am going through, which I think makes me feel so desperate. Who doesn’t go through struggles? Who doesn’t go through challenges? Everybody does. Rich or poor of any age. I am still too young to feel so desperate about not finding a direction in life. That’s the reason why I got school. I might somehow discover directions as I gain knowledge and are trained for certain skills. Surely, the world cannot be that small for me, friends cannot be that few, life cannot be that boring so that you would even think of ending my life. I simply understand, that whatever I am, whoever I am to myself, I am important and valuable in god’s eyes. I am unique and there has never been no will there ever be another me.

God gave me special blessings like the talents and abilities I recognize in myself. The thing I will do is develop the blessings God has gifted me with. I will expand my friends and acquaintances beyond the borders of my school. I’ll make myself productive at this time to conquer that indefinable feeling that makes me feel desperate and think cowardly thoughts like suicide. I will conquer my loneliness, fears and insecurities with more prayers. I won’t enclose myself in problems for they will be resolved in time, I will see. My age is a beautiful time. I will enjoy it. I will enjoy the challenges that face me at this time for I know they will help me grow to be stronger to face life more maturely.