Perceptions and Actions

I should have known..
I should have listened to my instincts..
But now it's too late to turn back..
It is now a scar of what my heart can hold..
Why am I doing this??


I couldn't understand it..
I somehow don't know what to do..
I'm afraid that if I'll spit out the truth..
It will ruin our relationship..


I have to make fabrications to cover up the pain..
But somehow I can no longer bear the burden of covering up..
It's hard when you love someone who gave your all..
But in the end it boils down to nothing at all..


It has been done..
Spat out all the words I've been hiding..
And now I'm regretting those words being uttered back to me..
I'm returning back again, sober and wasted..
As I've been doing for so long in my life..


It has been done..
Taking back everything is futile..
Now I have to go on with my own now..