Memoirs of an Amnesiac

Several researches have pointed out that writing is therapeutic. That just as speaking (as another form of expression) is effective, nothing disputes the fact that writing is way better. One understands that in writing, there is permanence and blatant criticism.

I am my personal critic when it comes to writing. One student once challenged me, "Teacher, you are so up and about dissecting our works, I have never even read one that you wrote." My little ego was challenged and so (luckily I still have software copies of them) I gave him the link to my blogs. He stopped questioning my authority since then.

I have several reasons why I write. There are things that fill my mind that I would want to let go of. I write because I needed some way to express what I feel about something even when they don't make sense. I write because I don't argue. I write to explain myself because I am always misunderstood. I write to let time pass by. I write because some things inspire me or fire me up that it would be too painful to take them all in without sharing them. I write because some things disappoint me or that some things are way beyond my control. I write because I hurt and there is no other way that could help me heal besides wrapping the hurt in between feel-good words (that in no way I knew would even matter). At other times, I write because I want to conceal what I really feel inside and I don't want people close to me to feel worried. But most of the time, I write because I am happy.

Yes, I don't hang out in the forums and you can call me self-centered. I don't care at all. Arguing is just not my thing. I guess I pick my own battles and care so much whether I win or lose in those battles. (Besides, I don't have all day to wait on people's comments and replies. Seriously? I have nothing against the people in the forums.)

I write blogs for the purpose of expressing myself not so much as to gain recognition or sentiment with or from anyone. You can write your comments underneath as free as you want. The world will still be a better place if you haven't read my blogs.

I could have sung but that's not me. I write and will choose to write even when the world seizes to become a habitable place.