LeeLeePot

a week and there had been a lot of misfortunes for this poor girl who writes this blog.

1st. just as i thought i was done with my loan, i had to loan again because somebody didn't pay me the money that they owe me. and since i can't force them to pay me because they really have nothing to give, i had to loan again. deym loansharks! they really kill. and because i had a kind heart, i ended up forgiving and forgetting the money that i lent to that person. *le sigh!*

2nd. i just heard from one of my dearest friends that she had the worst month--August. her dear brother died of cancer and her boyfriend broke up with her. i was empathic with her brother's death. but my extreme empathy overflowed and caused rage and hatred when i found out that the boyfriend, whom i gave a mafia ring since he made my friend happy, broke up with her because he got sooooo warped out with the hotness he met in a bar. i could have just pat my friend's shoulder and tell her that it's okay since some guys are just assholes in nature and that a good girl really won't come at par with a flirt when it comes to getting the man they wanted. however, when she told me that she already gave up her virginity, which she had been treasuring for TWENTY SEVEN YEARS, for that prick whom she thought would be with her forever, i went mad! the prick replaced my pretty friend with some flirt he met in a bar who owns a very cheap and dirty underwear (as per what my friend said when she visited the prick's pad to return all his things). i really don't get a male's psyche! i wish God would wave a hand and make all the males in the world look upon us women in the same way as God looks upon us. in that way, nobody would get hurt. *le sigh part two!*

3rd. i was able to pay for the loan i mentioned on my first problem HOWEVER, that same day, my mom called saying that she got admitted to Davao Doctor's Hospital because of excessive sh!tting (sorry for the word. doctors can't give the prognosis or the diagnosis so i just came up with a street word). at first i was cool about it since she's my dependent on my health card but when i found out that she still needs to get a PhilHealth membership so that ALL her expenses will get covered, i collapsed (well,it's just in my head but really. my brain collapsed). My parents weren't my dependents for PhilHealth since they're not yet 60 and it has been 3 years since their last contribution, thus, they cannot use PhilHealth anymore. My salary was below what I've expected since I had a birthday leave last August and so with a bitter heart, I had to loan again. Hello loanshark. I'll be seeing you in Alphaland on the 16th. *le sigh part three*

4th. my room mate, who acts like my soulmate, is currently fixing a laptop (an HP Compaq Presario) as his sideline to help us catch up with the finances. the laptop is fixed and ready for testing but the owner seemed to be uninterested in claiming the brilliant object. thus, that sideline of his is a total failure. *le sigh part four*

5th. i promised TER that i'll be buying the cd he's burning and somebody else that i'll be buying the samurai umbrella he's selling but since the funds are scarce due to unexpected events, i have to leave them hanging until i get my ledger balanced and up to date. i wonder if they're mad at me or if they think i'm a scam. *le sigh part five*


but despite all of these mess i'm in and the sea of debt i am swimming in right now, i am glad to announce that i am not letting myself sink! this life is a sink or swim dilemma. so far, i am swimming. in real life, i have no idea how to swim at all. but with these things that are happening, i am 100% sure that i am in no kiddie pool but i am still breathing. in sulfur. but still breathing. my mother got out of the hospital and i'm still thankful that it's not even worse but she still needs to do a few follow ups with the doctor. my friend is still alive and learning to cope up finally chewing up the words i implanted on her head while she was unconscious and dead to the world. the loan is not that big so i guess i can pretty much pay for it the next payday. and my roommat-slash-soulmate is willing to share his salary for me *blush*. indeed things are ugly and crappy but i still manage. that's what i'm thankful about. i'm still able to smile. Thank You Lord.