xinevirtucio

I watched you gaze into the sunset
I watched you bask under the sun's setting rays
Your eyes sparkled as you watch the sea turn into gold
Then I wondered when will those eyes look at me that way

You turned around, I felt my heart skip a beat
I pretended to gaze into the horizon, as if you did not exist
Yet, I can still feel your presence, enveloping me, making it hard to breathe
Be still my heart! I reprimanded, for there is no way you will ...

amazing what a gloomy weather can do to your thoughts...

my thoughts are exactly way out of line...

these thoughts are suppose to be non-existent...well, technically it shouldn't exist in the first place...or else it will be a never ending battle between my logical and illogical self.

life, in its simplest form is obviously simple...

we, who claim to be living the life, are the ones who complicate it...

well, probably because ...

Simple as it may seem
There are things in life that can't be explained
Questions like how, what, where, why
Can often remain unanswered

Life without emotion is often meaningless
Yet somehow emotions can lead one astray
Give in and you might regret it
Resist it and you might regret it still

Some things are meant to be
While some are not just for you
Of course in life you cannot have everything
Which is why ...

well not that their ghosts are still haunting...cause they're not..and no i'm not denying...

it just dawned on me...how far i've come..

from puppy loves....to tumultuous relationships...to pretentious relationships....to unstable relationships...

then a more serious...laid back..easy going....stable relationship....

i remember having to change boyfriends almost every year....making me look like a B*TCH...an easy girl...

people ...

I woke up in the middle of the night…
I can feel the cold crisp wind blowing against my face…
I sat in my bed heaving….
Why am I breathless?....
I never left my bed…

Then a sharp pain pierced my heart…
So sudden I held my breath…
I held my chest so tightly as if I could rip my heart out…
And then it happened again, a sharp pain…
I felt something flowing, trickling down my bosom…

It was so dark I couldn’t see… ...

I saw the way you look at me
I know it wasn't the same way as what used to be
You are probably wondering what went wrong
With something that used to be so strong

It wasn't me who changed but you
It was something that you chose to do
Though it is one of my greatest fears
I opted for a life without tears

The moment you stepped closer and kissed her
You knew you just lost something so dear
I need not to know
...

So long sweet love
Though your lips tasted like wine
I see no point in keeping you here in my heart
It breaks my heart to push you away
But you have tested my resolve beyond its breaking point

So long sweet love
You were the childhood fantasy I've always held in my heart
Your were the knight in shining armor that I've always longed for
And though I made a promise to love you, I just can't
I can't love you because my hands are ...